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2005-12-10T22:43:00.000-08:00

This blog is officially CLOSED.
CLOSED
CLOSED
CLOSED

2005-12-06T18:23:00.000-08:00

OMG TODAY'S THE CHALETTTTTTTTTT.
cant wait.
cant wait.
cant wait.
I love Marcos. ((:
I double love Double L.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOH.
im feeling so hyper right now.
GAH GAH GAH.
oh damn, i miss denmark.
Oh well, here is here now.

2005-12-03T17:11:00.000-08:00

BOOOOO.
Spent the last 2 days with LL.
Love that chick loads.
Seriously, we've been going from,
Novena to town, To Novena again,
And BACK TO TOWN.
We've done that TOO many times now,
That im super sick of going to town.
And walk those streets only to see,
PEOPLE IN THE SAME CLOTHES.
Its like walking in a clone-island.
LL and i went drunk yesterday.
We walked down the street and laugh our ass off,
at practically everything.
Hah, and oh, YESTERDAY WAS THE BUSIEST NIGHTT.
Seriously, fucking customers cant fucking wait.
I mean, CANT U SEE?!
WE'RE DOING OUR BESTEST.
Apparently, ur not the only one in the restaurant.
Jeeez. People aren't thankful enoughh.
Oh, parents were also super kind to me this morning.
Cos i presented them with a cheque of 521$ today.
They thought it was my pay lmao.
I wish it was. Hah.
I bet the most i'll get of my pay is like 200-plus.
Omg, thats super little.
How am i spose to get my ipoddd?!
Actually, the price should drop.
Iv seen too many people with ipod.
Seriously, i bet at least 53% of the population has ipod.
Hah, im an ipod detector.
LL wants to get a creative.
The other day, she went like,
You shall get an I and i shall get a C.
And when u put them together, its IC.
LMAO. CRAPSHIETY-NESS.
We both made plans on where our future husbands should shop at.
Lmao, I CANT WAIT TO GET MARRIED.
Aye LL? ;)
Gosh, she's my only one i can share things with.
BOO, ur lucky biatch. ((:

2005-11-30T08:35:00.000-08:00

THIS IS FOR MY BEST FRIEND, LL.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, you biatccchhhh!!
WOOOHOOO.
ITS HER BIRTHDAY.
ITS HER BIRTHDAY.
ITS HER BIRTHDAY.
And im gonna do one of those confession thingyyy.
LL, I dont think i can ever survive WORK without you.
LL, You really mean alot to me.
Not in THAT way, but u knoww.
We do craazy things together, and BOYY,
I enjoy everyONE of them. I DO.
I feel like i can tell you EVERYTHING.
From boys, to work to just everything.
I enjoy your companion and thanks for understanding my weird behaviour at times.
I think we're like the kickassess of the century.
Lmao, MANNN I LOVE YOU HUNNYBUNNSS!!
Let's have a Screw-kick-ass day tmrw!!
WOOOH.
Happy Birthday again, Sweetheart.

2005-11-27T00:59:00.000-08:00

BACK FROM CAMPPP.
woooohooo.
Left early tho. With LL too.
Hah, screwed shit.
Anyhoos, LL found this skin for me, so,
THANKS TO YOU BABE.
Hah, really like it.
LL and I declared ourselves to be,
Commentors of blogskins.
WOOOH. Yay usss!
Went for the celebration today at Tepak Sireh.
Was super duper boring, but yet, erm, exciting?
It seems like mom put in LOADS of effort to it, so yeah.
Oh well, miss Timmie.
Him and his fantasiz-ing mind.
I love his poem. He made one for me too! Wooh.
I HAVE POEM ON MEEEEE.
Think i'll post it here.
If i can remember. x)
Grrness, im gonna start on hw soon.
WORK TMRW.
Cant wait.
Cant wait.
Cant wait.

2005-11-23T03:53:00.000-08:00

Started work last monday.
SUPER FUN. But dammmit tired.
Seriously. We have like the best team, EVER.
Hah, Already 3rd day, But feels like 3 weeks.
Hah. So cliche, but yeah.
Oh well, crap and slack alot these days.
Stole food and all.
Hah, Took pictures, just for keeps.
Camp tmrw. Not working, damn.
Oh well, Not much to update anyway.

2005-11-15T21:59:00.000-08:00

Had like the awesome-est of the awesome-est time with double L yesterday.
Started off with petanque-training whatsoever.
It was with the presence of the french misterrr.
Yeap, he kept calling me, "Miss miss.."
And then the president of the club says,
"Like hitler." or smth.
They're like so pro. Im like nothing. Gah.
Anyhoos, they had this 4 station where 2 of them,
Specialize in Pointing, and the others, Shooting.
I felt more confident in the pointing section,
Whereas double L, the shooting section.
YOUR A SHOOTER. weet. x)
Decided to leave early and go shopping.
Walked blurdy fast at Orchard. Hah.
I guess we're used to it or smth.
And double L keeps saying,
"I cant believe im a waitress!"
Hah, dumb blonde. ((:
Walked like forever at Far East and then we came upon this shop.
Cant exactly remember what its called,
But heck, got like 2 shirts from there.
Retro-ey stuff there. GREAT shop.
I came out of the shop with new knowledge.
How to check for e correct size for my bust.
WOOH. Knowledgable. Hah.
Double L was doubting whether she should get a shirt.
Was only 15 i think. Or 16. Or was it 30? Gahh.
She's gonna splurge when her payday arrives.
And then i'll be all miserable.
I think i should get a job.
I applied, but they havent' FUCKING CALLED ME!
Shall try to be patient.

Anyhooos, hang out at Subway for a bit.
Took photos while we try to peek under people's skirrt.
We're dirrty, oooo yeah. ((:
Tried to have a serious conversation and all,
But with double L, definitely will crack up. LMAO.
Saw our MATE and said,
"Hey there MATE!" lol.
Right double L? (;
Madness. Hah.
After "chilling" there, WE, finally decided,
TO MAKE VIDEOS AT ME HOUSE.
Not Porn for goodness sake.
Wanted to, but not the right time. LOL.
Alright, so we hogged on double L's cam.
Making vid after vid after vid, in whichhh,
I LOOK HORRENDOUS IN ALLL.
But no doubt, it was enjoyable, i think. Hah.
Well, we called ourselves bored losers after the whole thang.
Seriously, i swear im NEVER gonna do this kinda things.
Not unless we're dying of boredom or smth.
Hah, we also did erm, the dirty lil secret thang.
Love double L's secret. Its secret-y. lol.
Oh oh, we did some make-over scarry shit thang.
Vandalised our faces and hogged more on the cam.
Took some, shall post it.
Double L has all the vids, so hafta wait for her to be free,
Before i can laugh my ASS off when i watch it.
Hah, Goodness.
Sometimes i feel like im a kid.
All of us are anyway.

OMG, I SAW A SNAKE TODAY.
IT WAS AWESOMEEEE!

2005-11-14T02:43:00.000-08:00

Pics of Adam, his mates, LL and me.
Hah, enjoy?

2005-11-14T02:03:00.000-08:00

Its weird how 1 mistake can change everything.
1 fucking mistake.
So i was self-concious.
Isnt everyone like that?
Its not fair, i tried so hard.
And its like im the bad one.
The one that killed the good person.
So you say you love me.
Thanks but you dont have to lie.
If its not even true, why the fuck did you say it?
To make me feel comforted?
Well did you know?
I loved you.
I really do.
I just dont know how to say it to you.
To make you believe me.
Well here, im gonna say it now.
I love you.
People think its not true,
But hey, if it has been for a long time,
Its very true.
Im sorry to disappoint you,
But i love you.

Now, tell me,
Do you love me too?

2005-11-05T21:41:00.000-08:00

I think im gonna give up waiting.
Yes, waiting.
Every single day, hour, minutes and seconds and milliseconds,
of MY life.
Cos i just found out that its been really,
Uhm, Nerve-wrecking?
I cant seem to find a word to describe the feeling.
I feel like iv been cheated.
Crushed.
Moulded.
Just something that made me changed.

I cannot believe i have moving-veins.
Well, thats cos im staring at them now.
WOOH.

More money collection nxt week i hope.
IM DYING FOR CASHHHHHH.

My attachment is over, and somehow,
i feel relieved.
Yet devastated.
I'm gonna miss them i suppose.

I just read about the life of a lawyer,
and MY MY, what a torture.
Seriously, just ONE mistake, and woah.
But im not done with the story, so..

I HAVE YET TO GET MARCOS' SURPRISE GIFT.
Omg, i have no idea what to get.
And today's e deadline.
Does e post office open on sundays?
I think Marcos' gonna win this time. Damn.
I think i'll get that thing from that shop. x)

Still falling for you.

2005-10-30T09:13:00.000-08:00

Okay, im gonna do one of those sad, depressing entry.
Cos well, i'm a sadist and a depressist, thats why.

Sometimes i feel like you treat me like SHIT.
You come to me when you feel like it,
And you leave me when you have someone else.
Its sad, SO SAD.
You hurting me even more.
Yeah, you can't imagine how hurt i am,
Whenever you say hello or goodbye.
You reply me, no doubt about that.
But do i still feel the sincerity in you?
God no. NOOOOO.
You talk to me like im nobody.
Like im just a passer-by.
And when you're upset, You come to me.
You tell me your problems.
And i take it seriously,
Really i doo.
But do you actually care about me?
About every little word i say to you?
Does it fucking mean a thing?
Or is it just words in the air.
And you forget it instantly.
I can feel it. Yes i can.
And you know what?
Iv tried SOOO hard. Just to make you HAPPY.
Just to see you smile.
I guess when the time comes,
You'll realise how much you mean to me.
And how deep you've stabbed me.
Cos when you do,
It'll be too late.

So yeap, i'm THAT DEPRESSED.
Its saddening i knaw.
Its not a big problem, but i can feel it coming.
And i just had to type it all down.
So yeap.
Im PATHETIC.

2005-10-29T05:03:00.000-07:00

Oh oh, here are the pictures of gf's and I.
We hogged into one of em machines at Far East.
Hah, tried to follow some of the cute poses.
And as you will see, didnt work out like it spose to be.
Hah, thats how lame we can get.

2005-10-29T04:34:00.000-07:00

Wooh.
Finally found the time to update.
Been busy with shitass stuff.
And checking out different type of sickness and all.
Its interesting.
But at times, I really feel sorry for these people.
Like, the look in their eyes makes me wanna ask them,
"Are you depressed?"
Cos they look depress.
Like there's nothing to look forward in their life anymore.
Its sad.

Adam's in town.
He just got in like last night i think.
He has like no idea where he is now.
Haha, neither does Sara.
BOO YOU GUYS. x)
Cant wait to meet them.

Went out with DIDI and siti yesterday.
It was weird, cos dont really know siti. So yeah.
DIDI is grrreat. SUPER CUTE.
and super caring.
Really. I like Didi alot.
Gosh, its making me fall for DIDI.
HAH. TOO BAD. am already falling for didi.

Oh, i told HIM.
Yeap, he knows everything.
Its weird. I keep telling myself,
"DONT EFFIN TELL HIM, DONT EFFIN TELL HIM!"
But thereee, i HAVE to open my effin mouth.
But the thing is, i dont know how im spose to feel.
Like, "HEY, isnt it good?" You told him!
And he's okay about it.
But at times, i tell myself,
"Damn, why did i tell? He's gonna hate me"
I should have just kept it a secret for a long time.
Like maybe when we're closer i would drop e bomb,
Or i shouldnt have told him at all.
Now he's gonna think im a freak or smth.
I knaw people might just tell me,
Heck, just dont care what he thinks.
But i cant. Im paranoid. I care about what people think.
Unless its redundant stuff.
Oh well, i shall try to er, look at e brighter side or sumfink.

Bought Hari Raya clothes today.
Sort off, 2 of em was specially made or smth.
Bought a black pant suit for 88 bucks.
Okay, MOM paid for me, duhhh.
I CANNOT WAIT FOR MY B'DAEE.
$$$$$$$$$. Wooh.
Haha, wish i can spend it with Didi.
Or Adam and Sara or LJ.
Then at night, spend it with family.
Hah, gots to work on that day tho. GEE.

I still love Ward 74.

2005-10-26T04:51:00.000-07:00

OMG IM SO DUMB.
DUMB.
DUMB.
Plainly,
DUMBBBBBBB!!!!!!!!!!!
Gosh, this is what happens when you're trying to "ignore" someone.
Like uhm, you like this person,
But you dont wanna message that person cos you err.
Know what? FORGET ITTT.
COS IM TOO REMORSE TO EVEN TALK ABT E PROBLEM.
COS IM DUMBBBBB.
SHIT IM DUMB.

WHY THE EFF DIDNT I JUST MESSAGE HIM?!?
now he's gone. GAH.
i dont get to TALK to him for e next 24+10+A GAZILLION HOURS!
DAMMNN. i cant wait that longgg.
im missing himm.
GAHHH. i guess thats how its gonna beee.
I MUST be strong and DEAL with ittt.
YES I CAN DO IT.

Being a nurse in ward 74,
IS THE BEST THING THATS EVER HAPPEN TO ME. (x

2005-10-22T22:17:00.000-07:00

Alright, i'v finally decided to post an entry.
1stly,

Happy Birthday Sam! x)

Wooh. Hoped you LOVE the things we got yah.
Hah, especially the PINK goodie bag.
YOUR favourite colourrr. ((:

Anyhoos, celebrated hun's b'dae with 5/6 of LJ.
Plus 3 other goondoos.
Hah, nah, i shall reveal them, CALVIN,NICK and ERIC.
Oh oh, plus SHIRRRR! rawrrr.
Haha, yeap met the rest at around 6.30-smth?

Did the packing of food for the victims of the Pakistan thing.
Its really sad hearing about their condition there.
Like, this doctor, he had to amputate 200 hands and legs,
EVERYDAYY!
Man, this really made me appreciate my hands and legs now.
I shall now make use of them in a good way.
Oh, and the kids there are sooo cold and sick.
Like Mindi said, the temp. there is like 5 degrees?
ANDDD, the clothes their wearing are like so thin and all.
I cant imagine how IM gonna survive there.
In denmark, when the temp was only like 14-16 degrees,
i was already shivering. Seriously.
And even then, i had 2 layers of clothes on.
This really made me think about things over there.
Anyhoos, we packed boxes of food.
And you know what? THEY ONLY GET 1 BOTTLE OF WATER!!
For a whole familyyy. Gosh.
I feel bad now for slacking yesterday.
Wait a min, i didnt really slacked, i mean,
LL! WE DID WORK!! hah.
Shall start doing more charity workkk.

Anyhoos, we ended the whole thing at like 1-plus, 2?
Decided to head to LL's house to watch movie.
Watched The 40 year-old virgin.
Not bad, not bad, just slow moving.
After watching, headed to sengkang to get hun's Polaroid.
Andd, we then go to townnn.
Blurdy NAT whizzed off home cos of xbox or smth.
LOSER. left me with the 2 biatchesss. LINA and LL.
haha. BUT, it was fun.
Lina's zip kept unzipping itself. shhh.
Carried the cake that lina made all around town.
FUN FUN FUNN!!
hah, decided to eat at Han's.
I ate FISH N CHIPPPS. hah. Yummm.
Sam and I decided to eat a slice of lemon,
plus chewing its skin in our mouth.
I did it for awhile, but decided to let the b'dae girl win,
so you know.
BOO YOU SAMMM.
We'll have a real battle NEXT TIME!
After thattt, gave hun her cake and presents.
and then her face changed when she saw IT!
Yes, the polaroid.
I just know she was soooo happppyyy! Haha.
Took her 1st EVER polaroid pic with nick.
BOO YOU NICKK. lucky shieet. he stole MY girl, MYYY girll!
Ate the broken cake cum brownie. Hah.
Its nice btw, Lina, really nicee. I mean it. ((:
Anyhoos, decided to take prints.
Been a long LONGG time since iv taken thosee.
Took 2 machines or smth, and decided to hog into one of them,
and take pictures using our OWN camerass. Hah.
Did loads of STUPID poses.
Well, i thought so. It turned out little in my memory thingabob.
After cam-whoring, headed back to our rooms.
But damnnn, we lost the keysss!
So we like, wondered around the hotel for like, er,
A long time?
Called our momms but they told us to go for MORE shoppingg!
Such caring moms we have.
Soo, we decided to stay at the local's house.
Hah, right gf's? We should punish ourselves.
For losing the room keyy. ((:
Oh well, had a BLASTTT with my gfs yesterday.
And with hun too. She was glowing with happiness.
Haha. Shall put the pictures in the next entry.
Too lazy right now.
Once again,

Happy Birthday Hunneh. x)

2005-10-17T02:07:00.000-07:00

Only You.

For all the things you said
You promised me the truth
But what i get is just a misled

Why cant you fucking say it?
Are you afraid?
Or is it all just an excuse.
To get me by.
So you can live your own life.
And forget all OUR times.
Of happiness and cries.

Well do you remember those times?
When you would cut a lime?
Just for me to dine?
And do you remember back then when we met?
You told me everything would be fine,
But when everything turned out like a shrine,
You blame me for all those crimes.

But the truth is i tried and tried,
To always make it right,
But you wouldnt fight.
Not tonight,
So guess what?
Here's your time to CRY.

~~ilysfm~~

2005-10-15T06:56:00.000-07:00

Gahhh.
Have not been updating due tooo...
STUDYING.
Yesss endless nights of STUDYINGGG!
Hah, stay up EVERY night to friggin study.
Yes, cos its all LAST MINUTE.
hah. And every night is a special night.
EW. Sounds so cliche. hah.
JEANIE!! MORE PRANK CALLSSS! hah. =S
Anyhoos, am gonna put in PICTURES this time.
YES YES, i know, i was lacking of em from e last post.
SO IM BACK FOR MOREEE.
most of em are from My studying days with LL at e library.
ENJOY!

2005-10-08T19:25:00.000-07:00

Ilu Spongebob. x)

2005-10-06T01:22:00.000-07:00

OH EMM GEEEEE.
I FRIGGIN CUT-TED MY HAIRRRR.
THANKS JEANIE FOR ACCOMPANYING MEE.
and freaking took my pictures while e lady was cutting
THE HORRENDOUS SHIT. (sp?)

Anyway, THE BLURDY LAPTOP WONT RECEIVE MY PICTURESS!
gahhh.
I broke the rule of listening to music.
BUT IT WAS ONLY TO RECORD THINGSSS!
BAD BAD BADDD.

oh well, im screwed anyway.

2005-10-02T22:58:00.000-07:00

LL and IIIIII. ((:

Min Da would soo kill me for thissss. HAH.

Brush brush brushhhh.

This is the cute guy from VF.

And im Mirro-st/ruck

My fav. snack in the WORLDDD.
Weeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I think LL is right.
According to her latest entry.
Adding pictures DOES make an entry more interesting.
Hah.

2005-10-01T19:52:00.000-07:00

Gahhhh.
Mom made me a time-table to studyy.
And im soo proud of itt. I MADE MY OWN TIME-TABLEE!
I mean, study-which-topic-table.
Whateverrr.

Chatting with HIM now.
He doesnt seem to care about me, thats sad.
Cos he doesnt realise how much IIIII like him.
His not over Dawn and how i wish he would be soon.
Im going craazy trying to resist my temptation to tell him.
LL said i should. =S
But what if i did tell him?!
Wouldnt he freak outtt?!
Maybe he'll go like, "EW. I'll never ever believe that."
Or worse, "Oh. Okay then."
Omg i wouldnt know how to react to that then.
LL is giving me counselling on that.

Gosh, its 11, i have an exam in an hour's time.
Read thru the topics, not remembering anything right noww.
AHHH. Why is my life evolving around,
EXAMS EXAMS and MORE EXAMSSS?!
I think my life's worst than a GEEK.
Now, im not just a nerd,
IMMA GEEK-NERD-THAT'S-FORCED-TO-LOVE-STUDYING!
YAY! GO MEE! n
not.

2005-09-30T14:20:00.000-07:00

I'm currently on the CHEMISTRY mode.
I'm so addicted to CHEMISTRY.
I wanna do ALL the CHEMISTRY questions in e world.
I love CHEMISTRY cos its so easyyy.
So now, I'm gonna take CHEMISTRY as my friend.
my BEST FRIEND IN THE WORLLDDD.
CHEMISTRY.
CHEMISTRY.
CHEMISTRY.

Yes, i sound a lil bit craazy talking about chem,
But what to do? When you've found the right one,
You just know it.

Yesterday, did more Chemistry with LL at Mac,
The WORST studying place in Srgn.
Anyway, i felt so laazy to do any of my work,
But there i was, doing and doing it non-stop.
I didn't realise it till i finished like 70% of my homework.
Im on the airrrrrrrrrrr.
Never in my life, have i ever completed THAT much of hw.
No i feel light-headed.

Nothing much is happening to me and Marcos.
He sometimes make me feel like im a loser.
Cos his so smart and funny and ALWAYS ALWAYS,
Does his HOMEWORK.
Actually, that made ME do my hw.
Cos whenever we talked, His ALWAYS doing his hw.
So i'll think,
"Man, if this dickhead is doing his hw everyday,
Should II do MY hw from now onn?"
And so, i decided, i SHALL DO ALL MY HOMEWORK FROM NOW ONNN.
Congratulate me, cos i've just achieved,
the MOST MOTIVATED PERSON award.
Thats's alright, that's alright, i dont need a medal.

I didnt know there was one more person joining,
Me and Sam's hate-lynn club.
Sorry, we ARE MEAN.
So if you're reading this, DO get offended.
But its our feelings, so we have the rights anyway.
One day, we WILL explode.

Oh Well, since im always studying,
I should continue anyway.

2005-09-27T03:21:00.000-07:00

Exams, are in 2 weeks and a few more days.
And i have not started studying anything.
I made a promise.
Its like i cannot keep it,
Altho i felt motivated to start studying today.
Really i did.
I even opened my maths book for awhile,
But suddenly realised that i didnt know which topic to study.
Im gonna try to start studying A MATHS soon.
Cos thats my worst enemy.
And then Chem.
Im like also worried for my mother tongue.
SHIT. I SUCK AT IT.
And my dad's like working in a newspaper shit thing.
I feel so ashamed for my dad. Hah.
Anyway, today was an okay day.
Went back with Sam today too.
Everyday, my hatred towards lynn (yes, we're not friends anymore),
Grows stronger and stronger.
Well, at least i know Sam's with me. ((:
Hah, im so addicted to vampire freaks.
People say im a freak anyway.

2005-09-23T17:50:00.000-07:00

What i thought was a great feeling,
Turns out to be the WORST ever.
Seems like my words were mistaken.
YOU THINK YOUR A FUCKEN SLAVEE?!
What about listening to what i wanted to say?!
DID YOU HAVE TO SHOOT AT ME LIKE THAT?!?
WHAT?! Just cos yer drunk and yer bst mate killed himself.
So its my fault now?
You dont seem to fucking care about how I feel.
About how i always miss you,
and you think im a selfish bitch,
Wanting you to be with me 24 fucken 7.
THATS NOT WHAT I MEANT!
I know you need to pay up em bills,
But try to understand how much i need YOU.
You wanna drive off the cliff and say goodbye to all the wonderful things in e world?
GO AHEAD.

YOUR DEAD TO ME ANYWAY.

2005-09-18T01:25:00.000-07:00

OMGGGGGGG!!!

IM SOO IN LOVVVEEEEEEE.

SO MUCH IN LOVEEE.

SHUT UP, COS IM IN LOVEEEE.

I cant believe it.
How the eff can i be in love.
When his there telling me he loves me,
I dont feel a thing.
Now that his rarely here,
IM MISSING HIMM!!
Shit me, im so dumbbb!
Grrrr.
Wishing his with me noww.
LOVE
LOVE
LOVEEEEEEEE!!
I'VE GONE NUTSS!

2005-09-16T05:59:00.000-07:00

AM BACK FROM OBS!!!
AND MYY, WAS IT THE BEST EXPERIENCE EVER!!
and obviously, missing so many people right now.
Like, SERENE!
my instructor whose just gone to Australia like an hour ago.
The craapy Imran.
The Small-size Farid and his lame jokes.
The flirtatious Abul.
The FIGHTER seven.
The Vomitter Ash.
The blur Ronnie.
The action-mama Yu Min.
The Strong Jason.
The love-biter Hakim.
The Sprained-ankle Jean.
The Ant-liker LiLin.
The FRIENDLY Lina.
The Mr.Cool Choon Hao.
and not forgetting,
Mr Im-so-secretive Aidil.
Hah. Anyway, i know this would so come.
RALEIGHIANS SOOO ROCKKK!

really dreading going to school!

Anyway, about the camp.
IT WAS A BLASSSTTT!
First day was obviously quite boring,
Cos dont know e people yet.
Thank god there's LINA, LI LIN!!
Anyway, did the back-to-basic activites on e 1st day.
Like we can belay our friends on our own.
and we did the fall-trust or something.
Like u turn ur back and fall backwards.
REALLY COOL!!
And so, we were told that we were the mobile lot.
At 1st, we're like, YEY!!
Get to move around and all that.
Just wait and listen to the other part of the story.
Anyway, 1st night,
Lina and I torn the whole night.
But were kinda forced to sleep half the night.
But couldnt, FUCKING DOG BARKING LIKE HELL!!
Anyway, the malay guys were like talking and laughing, alott.
So we couldnt sleep.
Just stared into space. GRR.
Had to wake up and strike the tent by 8am?
Was late, of course.
Oh, and 2 of our friends were caught for doing smth wrong.
1st statement already! Hah.
So second day was quite okay.
IN THE MORNING ONLY.
Then had to pack our bags and set off for 2nd campsite.
And dammit, the bag was sooo effin heavyy!
Had to walk and talk about the surroundings or smth like that.
But we complained so serene cut short the journey.
Hah. So we reached the second campsite,
It was by the beach btw. Cool eh?!
And went rafting.
WE WENT INSIDE A QUARRY!!
SOOOOO FUNNN!! SO CLEARR!
anyway, then after that dinner.
And next day, THE WORST PART,
THE ANTS INFEST OUR BAGGGSSS!!
like blurdy hell. All our food and everything.
POOR LI LIN! her bag was e worst.
The 3rd day was the worst.
Another statement.
Another LONG LONG hike.
Practically walked the whole of Pulau Ubin.
Like blurdy hell!!
Anyway, the campsite oso not bad.
We did so many things too.
Like uhm, JETTY JUMPPP!!
ROCK CLIMBING.
KAYAKING.
So many, so little time.
CAMP 1 WAS THE BESTTT!
So equipped.
Anyway, missing Raleigh now.
And grrr, have to go now.
So till later.

2005-09-07T21:17:00.000-07:00

I've lost someone.
Someone who may not be so close to me,
But still made an impact in my life.
She was innocent.
She was loving.
She never did anything wrong.
Even tho she has no husband to love her,
She knows she has her whole family behind.

Now iv realised.
Living in this life aint easy.
After losing my most beloved grandfather,
I've tried to move on.
I mean, COME ON!
I WAS SO CAUGHT UP WITH MY OWN LIFE!
I DIDNT FREAKING BOTHER ABOUT HER.
IM BLURDY SELFISH.
ALL I THINK ABOUT IS MYSELF.
DID I EVER CARE HOW SHE'S DOING?!?
NO! NO NOOOOOOO!!

And now when she's gone,
IM MISSING HER!
How can i, I?!?
BE LIKE THIS?!?
Afterall my parents had taught me,
THIS?!?!?!?

I NEED A SERIOUS MAKEOVER.
of myself.

2005-09-06T09:18:00.000-07:00

Today.
UHM, the 2nd most tiring day.
Olrite, took my bikini,
AT LASSSTT! lol
Oh, and head off tah Airport to study.
It was stupid when we reached there.
When we finally found Mac,
and after we bought our meals,
There came in this I'M-THE-HIGHEST-CLASS-STAFF-HERE,
and she tells us that we cant study there!
Grr. We were fucking pissed.
I WAS ALREADY SETTLED THERE!!
I STARTED DOING MY PAPER ALREADY YOU BITCH!
So everyone else studying there,
Were also pissed and all so had to get out of there.
LOL, Misha and LL asked ME to write,
"YOUR SERVICE SUCKS.No worries about complaining"
On a tissue. Hah.
She saw it and she turned around to look for us.
Anyhoos, headed to Burger King next.
OH OH, we bought $10.80 worth of chocolateee!!
CRAVING FROM DENMARRRKKK!!
grr lol.
Later at night, we cycled.
Was a last minute thing.
LL suggested to look busy,
You know people on e phone, organisers.
LOL. IT WAS SO COOL!!
hah. Im all tired now.
Oral tmrw.
GRR-NESS!

2005-09-05T19:36:00.000-07:00

Its the 2nd day of the hols.
LIKE, OMG!!
SO EFFIN FASSSTTT!!
Grr. Its not happening!

Hmm, loads of hw to be done.
Not really, LOADS.
Just some leftover maths shit i didnt complete.
Oh, and i have 3As, 3Cs and 1F9!
Its actually not bad,
Compared to NANA! ((:
Hah, am gonna work extra extra hard this term
LL'S WITH ME!

Parents+Sister&Cousins,
Are going KL today.
IM suppose to follow,
But since i made an oath to study hard,
I shall sacrifice my shopping time for,
STUDDDDY!!!! ahhh.

Alrighty, im not posting much,
Cos apparently, Nothing much is ever happening in my life.
BOO YOU!
Adam might be coming over here!
AHHH IM SO EFFIN EXCITEDDD!!
Grr-ness!

2005-09-03T05:02:00.000-07:00

BOOOO!
HAH.
IM FEELING SO SO SO HAPPPYYY.
i finally found someone, well, i admire.
Like, REALLY ADMIRE.
In which the looks dont matter,
AT ALL!
HAH.
**SHUT UP LI LINN!!**

Anyways, was spose to go hikinh,
with GG peeps,
But skipped that and went for flag day instead.
HAH. WAS SOOO FUNN!!
Spent the entire day wit Lin and Sam.
Went tah get wax strip for tryouts.
WAS NOT PAINFUL, BUT ITS BLEEDING NUMB!!
Anyhoos, went to drink SLURRRPPYY too. ((:
And then head to Lin's place and waxed and all that.
And then we karaoke-ed.
Was actually spose to return tin cans at 2.30pm,
but got so caught up with singing that we left da hse at 3?
A huh.
Called Mr Lim and said,
"WE GOT INTO SOME PROBLEM!
in which he went like,
"WHAT PROBLEM YA'LL GOT INTO?!?"
Hah, craazy shittt.
Lin's mommy gave us a ride to school,
and Mr Lim and the rest of e teachers was like staring at us.
We told him that some old guy tried to harass us.
He almost spit at us or smth.
SUCH GOOD STORY-TELLERS WE ARE!!
hah. And after that, we went j8 for lunch.
at LJS! hah. New fav place for the LJ's.
Head back to Lin's house again for MORE KARAOKE!!
HAH. Sang like a lot.
We liked Joy to the world song the bestt!!
And ROCK AND ROLL too!!
Sang like loads of songgg.
Ended the session with Lady Marmalade!
It was awesome, todayyy.
Oh well, more updates later.
Gonna eat dinner!
Cheerios.
Dume-BO.

2005-08-29T23:48:00.000-07:00

Okay.
I have no idea how im suppose to feel right now.
Excitement would be e closest answer.
Been hooked on to habbo, yet again.
Guess im back to those old days.
GEE.
LiLin and I are currently flirting with each other.
*wink wink*

Really have no mood to post anything.
Really depressed cos his not on.
BOO BOO!!!

Olritey, AM OFF!
Chika.

2005-08-25T22:21:00.000-07:00

Weeeee.
Am currently in Lina's housee.
Am gonna go out in a few minutes,
Probably to Far East to get new bikinis.
Still need to change my Kroner-$$.
Anyhoos, got back most of my results.
Mostly borderline but im okay with it.

A.Maths: 5/40
E.Maths: 23/30
Chemistry: 27/50
Physics: 25/50
Geography: 20/40
Malay: 44/80
English: 28/40

Have yet to get back Social studies,
But really hope i pass.
Oh well,
we gotta change.
Ciao.

2005-08-20T00:11:00.000-07:00

Everyday i wake up and i wonder,
What am i doing?
Why do i wake up in depression?
What else am i gonna do in my life?
Go to school?
Fail tests?
And then what?
Sometimes i dont even know what i want.
Do i want good grades?
What else am i gonna get from those?
Why does everyone wants to be smart?
Why does everyone emphasise on being no. 1?
Is it really a bad thing to be the last?
Everyone dies in the end, anyway.
So why? Can anyone even answer these questions?

UGH. im so not motivating myself.
Even tho i ask myself why i need to do well for exams,
I just know i have to.
God. Am feeling so depressed.

3 more paper's to go.
Oh, i flunked A maths.
Bravo!
NOT.

2005-08-07T03:03:00.000-07:00

GOSH.
Yesterday was AWESOME!!
Check out Li Lin's blog for more info.
WOOH.
Life in singapore now is not so bad i think.
But not really used to the timing yet.
Sadly, school hours is sleeping time over there,
So you can imagine how i try to concentrate.
Especially Chem and Eng. GOODNESS!
Oh well, im not gonna type any longer.
Ciao!

2005-08-03T01:53:00.000-07:00

Okay so im backk.
I hate the feeling.
Back when i was in Denmark,
(sounds so long time ago.)
My friends and I were sooo free.
We could go wherever we want.
At whatever time we want.
(on e last night, we went out to e central at 1 i think.)
I knew i would have this feeling.
This feeling of missing e place.
I mean, 2 weeks is longg.
But the happy thing is,
Mindi, Jin Man, Misha, Li Lin and I,
Are gonna meet up every week and gossip.
I soo hope the meeting would always remind me of Denmark.
The quiet street and the abandoned buildings.
The eerie park at night and the high-rise roller coaster.
I so miss the fries at Shawarma, the shops!!
(B.YOUNG ROCKS!!!)
There's so many things i miss!
And e camp?!?
I miss Sofie and her kindness,
Julie and her blurdy long hair,
Helene and her stoning,
Emma and her punk-rock look,
Line and her cacat laughter,
Eva and her long body,
but i miss SABIII THE MOST.
No no, CLUMSY HANSSS.
ahhhhhhh.
Im going off to write letters.
Ciao.

2005-07-21T23:12:00.000-07:00

hello hello hello - li lin:)

Yeah whatever. Anyways,
IM IN DENMARK DAMMIT!!!!
ARGH.
ARGH.
ARGH.
Finally, after sooo long of waiting.
Its already the second day here.
And its freezing like craazy.
They have this internet service for free at the
'RECEPTION/CAFE' thang. Madness. Hah.
My god, i miss my family olreadi.
Oh oh, we went to this cool theme park called,
Tivoli. UGH. SIMPLY E BEST!!
The rides there are way cooler and 'thriller' than Singapore's.
Love it to bitsss.

The sky here is sooo weird.
They're 8.30pm is like 5.30-6.30SGP.
But i like it.
Oh, but we get tired real fast during e afternoon,
cos its in e middle of the night in Sgpore.

Olritey shall end this.
BYE BYE PARENTS AND SIBLINGS AND FRIENDS.
MISS YAH LIKE CRAAZY.
Ciao.

2005-07-19T07:50:00.000-07:00

I know i'v said this so many times before,
But sometimes, i just feel like telling him straight to his face.
Li lin have tried to advice me on that,
But it just isnt easy. HIS SCARRRYY!.
Really. I dont know why.
I cant seem to find myself going up to him,
to even say hello!
I always need help.
Its either that or im just shy.
But whatever it is, im trying real hard,
to forget him.
Okay, not totally forget him, cos its impossible.
Just, let my feelings fade away.
Im not trying to make this like an emotional post,
but really, i think i should "sacrifice". Aha.

Sometimes, the sad thing in life,
is when you meet someone you care so much,
Only to find out that its never meant to be,
And you just have to let it go.

Iv tried, Li Lin.
I swear!

2005-07-16T17:57:00.000-07:00

Gawdddd. I hate Sundays.
On Sundays, i'll be spending half my day in e mosque.
No, no problem with that.
its just that Sunday reminds me of SCHOOL!
Cos i'll have to finish all my blurdy HW!!

Okay, 2 more days.
Mindi has packed and she's all ready to go!
WOW! i havent even got all my freaking things.
Okay, so now, all i have is:
.:Lots of polo tee
.:Plain tees and P.E. tee for day activities.
.:Jeans, duhh.
.:Slacks. (Bought 2 yesterday with daddy)
.:Other-type-of-pants.
.:That university-type of sweater.
.:Jacket.
.:Shorts (Mostly)
.:Scarf.
.:Converse Chuck taylor. ((:
.:Towel.
.:Folded fork,spoon,knive.
.:Heat pads.
.:Thermo sleeping bag.
And some other personal-kinda stuff.
So anyway, Mindi said i'll be sleeping in e same room as her,
at e Cab Inn.
Supposedly, we're gonna sleep wit our group members.
But Mindi's quite olrite.
Monday, mommy's having some farewell thingy for me.
Oh, also for good luck or smth liddat for my brother,
Whose going NUS soon.
Oh oh, and for my younger cousin's birthday partay.
Or some sort.

Things are really shaky with him.
Hmm. Shall not mention it.
Meanwhile, i have to go shittt.
Ciao!

2005-07-09T19:34:00.000-07:00

I have nothing to say.

I dont even know why i logged in.

9 more days. JOY?

2005-07-05T05:40:00.000-07:00

2 weeks baybehhhh.
2 more weeks till da trippp!!
Gosh, i dont know how im suppose to feel.
Happy? Glad?
Sad? Nervous?
i think right now, it'll be EXCITED!!
LOL. hmmm.
Had another meeting today and 2 more left.
Goodness, i need to like get LOADS of stuff.
And daddy's olreadi complaining.
Cos its adding to his burden.
I mean, plus my expenses over there,
sissy's expenses.
And worse, brother's university's money.
Just 1 term, its olreadi 5,000.
And in 1 year its 2 terms. Goodness!!
I kinda feel bad.
Gee, i look and li lin and e rest, its like they're not really worrying.
Now daddy's tryna find me a sponsorship. i think.
Some sponsor thang.
Really hope i'll get one.
Ugh, now, i have to like study extra hard for e 2 weeks
that im MISSING.
We have like 2 nights of free and easy cos we'll arrive earlier.
Weeeeeeeeee. SIGHT-SEEING mann!!
Gosh, cant wait.
going on the 20th baybehhh.
I'll continue worrying for now.
Ciao!

2005-07-01T05:29:00.000-07:00

Oh, Go check out sam's blog.
For more infos on da camp.
It REALLY IS a BLAST!!
Oh btw, she spelt Absailing wrongly.
Its A-B-S-A-I-L-I-N-G.
Ha-di-Ha.

2005-07-01T05:07:00.000-07:00

Weeeeeeeeee.
I'm in HIGH spirits.
I LOVE my adventure camp.
It soooo rock like hell.
Gosh, e songs, e trainers,
Especially WEI NING!!
She's like soo cute. AND FUNNY.
God, i wanna have that camp again.
Its sooo lovable.
Im always singing camp songs.
Oh, im officially a LONGAN-IANS. (:
I sooo miss da camp and da trainers.
But we really had so much fun together.
Laughing and all.
The last day was e worst.
Couldnt bare to leave the camp.
We didnt even get to say a real goodbye to Wei Ning.
But Sam and I tried to bring our spirits up.
We kept singing camp songs and encourage people and all.
Oh, on e first night, sam and I tried to like stay up.
Hah. Guess what?
Well, we slept at around 3?
Couldnt stand it. Blurdy tired.
I tried like soo many things.
I love the rock climbing e best.
Its challenging, but its just e best.
Flying fox was e 2nd best.
My heart almost came out when i fell off the "cliff".
There's like so many things to say about the camp.
That i TOTALLY enjoy.
Oh i love this dance.
It goes something like this i think.

Hey Banja Billi Banja (Then u repeat it twice.)
Naga Hey Naga Ho,
Billi Banja.(You repeat this 2 lines)

Goodness, i need sam to help me remember,
ALL e camp songs.
Haha. We kept singing and singing.
I love this one.

Hey people do the dance,
Let me see you clap your hands. (1,2, 123 clap hands) x2
Now that you got the beat,
Let me see you stomp your feet. (1,2,123 stomp feets) x2
Now that you got the groove,
Let me see your body move.
Aruga aaa, aruga aaa.

Soo much funnnn!!!
Oh well, i shall continue singing da camp songs.
Till later.

2005-06-25T05:45:00.000-07:00

Gosh. I wanna be THIN!
I wanna be skinny as ever.
I dont care if im all bones.
At least if im boney, i can still eat ALOT.
I dont even mind to be suffering from Anorexic.
But its like, i just cant stop eating.
What i mean is, when i tell myself that i dont wanna eat,
Somehow, something influences me to!
UGH.
That's it, im gonna go on a strict,
VERY STRICT diet.
When school reopens that is!
Ciao. Am off to eaaatttt.

2005-06-23T06:46:00.000-07:00

Okay, i better hurry.
Or my keyboard's gonna disfunction again.
Firstly, im not gonna bother anymore abt:
1. Completing my a maths homework.
2. Completing chem ten.year.series
3. Completing Malay compre.
4. Completing EL articles.
5. Completing ANY other hw.
Argghhhhh. Im screwed.
Really screwed.
Oh well. I hate the feeling.
The feeling of guilt everytime i think of,
HOMEWORK.
Cos wherever i go, i keep thinking of it.
Makes me almost obsessed by it.
I keep thinking,
"When am i gonna finish it?"
"Will i finish it on time?"
Its so frustrating. I hate it.
I just wanna spend my "last days"(of e holiday of course),
in P-E-A-C-E!!!
God, help meeee!!!!!!
Oh well, im gonna hang myself now.
Ciao!

2005-06-22T19:05:00.000-07:00

Okay, 3 more days.
To torture!!
Oh god, just mentioning e word makes me wanna PUKE!
Its too disgusting. God.
Its not that i hate it.
i LOATHE it.

2005-06-12T18:21:00.000-07:00

Olrite.
Am now waiting for daddy to get ready.
Nowadays, i dont get ready late!
Such a pleasure. Weeeee.
Okay, so i am like so blurdy hungry.
Didnt eat e whole day yesterday.
God, daddy's ready!
Surprise! Hah.
G2G. Ciao!

2005-06-12T03:32:00.000-07:00

Olrite. I have time for now.
By e next 15 mins, the bell would ring.
And that would continue for like at least 6 more trays.
Yeap. Been busy baking cookies.
WEEEEEEEEEEEEE. im so happy.
Its almost a 100 orders.
Just a lil bit more. Phew. Thats 2000 bucks!
Anyway, am going for a 4-day trip ta M'sia.
(Like, where else? But im happy tho!)
Hah. There's a meeting on Friday.
And i have not read up much about both,
Denmark and Singapore.
BUT! I've gotten all e stuff that is needed.
I just hafta do tha origamis on e way ta KL.
Doing da last batch of cookies after trip.
Its like so tiring.
Plus time-consuming!
I havent got e time to complete my homework.
Nevermind e other subjects,
I cant even complete MATHS!
Im still struggling wit E.Maths.
Gawd, wait till A.Maths come.
Planning to do it AFTER hols.
Doubt i'd have time tho. ugh.
God, how am i gonna cope later on?!?
I dont think i'd get to enjoy my trip.
Will be too busy worrying bout homework!!!!! GOSH.
Sam's probably trying to translate her words to chink.
She's like in some rural part of China. LOL.
Good luck girlfriend.
Sooo, i cant wait till hols are over.
Seems like i dont get to enjoy it that much.
Havent really enjoyed it YET.
Hope next week's trip is worth it. Im so pissed.
In my head, all im thinking of is,
How e hell am i gonna complete ALL of my homework?
God. Especially Malay. So screwed!!
Oh well, im gonna stop bragging now.
Doesnt help anything.
Gonna complete maths.
Ciao!

2005-06-09T06:24:00.000-07:00

God. Why is it soo difficult?
Ugh. Blurdy hell.
Its so difficult to forget him.
I mean, its already been 3 days.
Gosh. THIS is smth different.
Hmmm.
Im beginning to move on.
Like what Sam said, maybe i should just move on.
I mean, whats e use if that person just wont accept it?
Okay, this is it.
Im finally getting over Leo.
No more fantasizing abt him. Im thru him.
Weeeeeee. I feel lighter already.
But ugh, why cant my mind just erase his face?
His stupid-cheeky-cute-naughty-? face.
God, its so irresistable. Hah.
Alright, alright i'll stop.
Gosh, im sooo pissed at myself.
I cant control my desire.
I cant stop myself.
Its soo addictive.
IM IN LOVE WITH SOLITAIRE.
And bcos of that, i totally sidetrack.
Im not finishing my hw.
(JEANIE!! you friggin' finished your maths!!)
Im slacking, alot.
Im constantly daydreaming.
Im baking lots of cookies.
Thats not really a reason.
Im doing it for a purpose.
God, this is hard.
I hope by tonight, i'll transform and become a hardworking freeek.
I really dont mind becoming a nerd.
Its a good investment.
Really.
Dear GOD, help me transform, PLEASE!
Ameen.

2005-06-02T02:47:00.000-07:00

IM BACK BAYBEHHHHH.
Finally!! Camp's overrrr.
No more silly meetings in da morn.
Everything is O-V-E-R!!
What a relief. Hah.
Camp was fun too.
Tho its creepier this time.
Different stories here and there.
Plus we had a Haunted thrill on e 1st night.
and the Camp Committees, including me,
had to "practice" the route and i was getting a lil timid.
A huh. It was pretty scary actually.
But after awhile, i got used to it.
Just irritated wit one of my committee,
Who's such a scary scared, she gives excuses in doing e thrill.
Or something like dat.
At that point, i was like blurdy irritated.
Oh well, its over now.
I didnt get to enjoy the midnight movie tho.
What a waste. I was looking forward to it.
Harumph!!
2nd day was such a waste.
I DIDNT GET TO PLAY ANY GAMESS!
Duh, im part of the conductors. Hah.
You know, maybe e next time,
I would rather people planning a camp for me.
Gosh, you cant imagine e hard work.
Gracie was my assistant quartermistress.
She seems more stress than i am.
Maybe she pushes herself too hard.
Well, thats cos i gave her loads of assistant stuff.
IM EVILLL!!
Anyway, this time, we coud go back earlier.
Thank goddd.
Gosh, heard so much superstitious last night.
You know, i remember the time i almost saw a ghost.
Im not sure if its a ghost, but i saw a black shadow.
In my kitchen. Freaky.
Butttt, it turns out to be my imagination.
I tell myself that. Hah.
Right, so now my fund raising is becoming successful.
Already have 26 bottles.
Busy, busy, busy.
All im afraid is that i wont be able to complete my hw in time.
I seriously want to complete it, fasttt!
Seems like i have to get started now then.
Ciao.

2005-05-27T16:18:00.000-07:00

Today, as named by Sam is,
DOOMSDAY!!
Gosh. Im not attending the talk tho.
Daddy had to be at the mosque.
To ensure some stuff or whatever.
Gonna be there like around 9.00?!
What the heck.
I cant face it. NOOOOOOOOOOOO.
Okay, a lil bit exaggerating. hah.
Watched Madagascar. It totally rawks. LOL.
Its really funny and all. I dont really like Alex tho.
Im pretty sure the Giraffe is David Schwimmer.
Yeap. And Gloria is hilarious.
Anyhoos, wanted to watch Monster-in-law.
But the timing was late and all.
Oh well. Im gonna get ready for Doomsday. NOT!
Ciao.

2005-05-23T06:05:00.000-07:00

Olrite, its,
THE LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL BABY!!
WOOOOHOOOOO!!
only 4 more days tah go.
And im finally freeeeeeeeee.
I dont know why, but i really, just cant wait.
Even tho my schedule is like packed wit WORK.
Anyhoos, went Sentosa, yet again, yesterday.
This time, tho, went wit Lynn, Bises, WeeChuan, Wee Chuan's darrling,
AND MEE!
Gosh, my skin is like soooo gonna peeeeel.
Anyways, blurdy cant wait for denmark trip.
They'll probably extend it to 1 FRIGGIN WEEK!
Can u believe how much school im gonna miss?!?
Actually, i kinda feel bad, but at e same time, its quite olrite.
I just hafta work extra extra hard.
Gosh, 2 whole weeks. Thats like almost 1 and a half chapter
Of A.maths!!
I better bring my book along.
LiLin and I were like,
OH MI GODDDDD!! EXTENSION!!
lol. Right.
Its less than 60 days from now, dats 4 sure.
Olrite, olrite, i'll stop counting.
I better get ready for school.
Ciao.

2005-05-20T19:05:00.000-07:00

Okay. Its a Saturday morning,
I woke real early today.
Da camp committee's coming over soon.
For da Cha Cha Slide.
Weeeeeee. I think it was on Nickelodeon once.
Hah. They having difficulties coming over tho.
Boo. My house's preety easy to find, really.
Oh well, they're calling.
I better go and fetch them.
Ciao!

2005-05-19T23:50:00.000-07:00

Weeeeee. Am at LiLin's hseee.
Waiting her to groom herself and all that.
Just finished guide meeting at Bishan, yet again.
Today's meeting was pretty relax.
Anyway, have like ANOTHER meeting at Guide House.
Which, im looking forward too.
Its at 4 and all dat so i have an hour and a half.
So here i am, at Lin's house,
Entertaining myself.
But Lin's computer is like fucking cool.
I mean, its so blurdy different from mine.
Firstly because her mouse has both thingy to click.
Her internet is like blurdy fast.
Her msn is e latest version thingy,
Thats cos SHE can download,
and i?!? Blocked by e walls of BRUDER.
Gosh, Lin should open a cyber cafe cum house.
Right. Lin, i planned out ur future "job". Thank me.
Oh well, im really not in e mood to blog,
Altho, i do have some interesting news.
Interesting, as in, BAD-interesting news.
Its proven!
HE HAS A FUCKING GIRLFRIEND.
Even tho i havent seen him exactly wit his gf,
Its just proven.
But i dont see them together at all.
I wonder if his gf love him as MUCH as I DO.
I doubt so. Ha.
Maybe i should change my attitude, Like,

1) Stop messaging him unnecessarily.
2) Gosh, JUST SAY HI you asshole.
3) Stop acting like you like him.
4) Dont stare too much at him.
5) Whenever you know his there, just smile.
(Dont pretend like you didnt see him!)

Rite, like i can really control myself.
I am soo screwed.

2005-05-17T23:51:00.000-07:00

Right. Here i am again,
In da school's comp lab, dohh.
Dis time, we're suppose tah find some kind of crossword puzzle,
Which, surprisingly, I DID!
A huh, i did 2 in fact.
I am so proud of myself.
Anyhoos, FUCKING HELL!!
COMMON TESTS ARE OVER BAYBEH!!
Got back some of ma results,
Gosh, i flunked 2 subjects already. What a bummer!
Anyway, the next few days would be pure fun!
NO STUDYING!! (hah, all e best to da bio and lit peeps)
Oh, im left wit less than 60 days till da trip!
Cant wait.
Im dreading June holidays now,
Cos there'll definitely be loads and loads of HW.
God, i just cant wait for camps and trips to Malaysia,
Which ma family goes EVER YEAR.
No, make that EVERY HOLIDAY.
Even those which are only 1 week.
Anyway, am off to da hall.
Ciao.

2005-05-13T20:00:00.000-07:00

These last few days,
Has been the best days of my life.
Oh gosh.There are a few reasons of course.
Here's some at e top of ma head.

1. He finally talked to me.
2. 5 papers have passed.
3. Im left wit 3 more papers instead of four.
4. Its the weekend.
5. Holidays are coming.
6. There's a meeting next friday.
7. Days to Denmark trip gets lesser and lesser.
8. We sms-ed.
9. Im almost done wit my maths homework.
10. I dont need to study much for today and tmrw.

There. Aren't i glad?
Hmm. Oh well.
Till after my papers next week.
Ciao!

2005-05-10T23:34:00.000-07:00

Wooooohooo.
Am at school now.
Its english class now and we're at da lab,
searching on some kind of articles.
While mrs raj goes on babbling and scolding,
The rest OBVIOUSLY does other things.
Like listening to music,
And duh, BLOGGING.
omg she's coming.
Ciao!

2005-05-06T19:03:00.000-07:00

IM OFF TO KUALA LUMPUR, baybehhh.
SHOPPING.
STUDYING.
SHOPPING.
STUDYING.
SHOPPING.
STUDYING.

Monday's social studies paper.
And im going overseas.
Congratulations to me.

2005-05-05T02:40:00.000-07:00

This is for my older sissy,
Happy Birthday yeah?

Thank you. Thanks a whole lot.
For helping me when i was in need.
For teaching me maths,
[Even tho you sometimes get frustrated explaining it to me.]
For listening to all my crappy stories.
For letting me hang out in yer room,
((On those boring and lonely days))
For always being there for me.
For giving me all those lame advices,
(Some turned out good tho)
For "bringing me up",
For showing me "GOOD" example,
For providing me with e essential needs,
Like cooking for me. BOO.
For taking care of me when i was sick.
For sticking by me when im in trouble.
((Like that time in MIRC. omg, i still remember))
For teaching me good things in life,
For correcting my english,
[especially e oral part]
and lastly,
For being my sister.

Happy Birthday sis. (:

2005-05-01T19:19:00.000-07:00

Its monday!!!!!!!!!!!!
And im not in school. (its public holiday actually) BOO.
Anyway, later on am going swee hao's crib.
Continuing da dance thang.
Showing ms Zavier e dance tmrw.
Woooohoooo. Cant wait. Really love da dance.

Well, it's one for the money,
Two for the show,
Three to get ready,
Now go, cat, go.

Anyway, yesterday was pretty fun.
No, not really actually.
Spent half of e day trying tah complete maths.
[Im still left wit e last exercise! UGH.]
Anyway did it till 5.30
And then daddy said there's this launch at
Botanical Gardens!!
Like, how long havent i been there?!?!!?
So was totally excited and all that.
Daddy said dat the launch was some Singapore Orchestra thing,
Which was sponsored by his company.
But, when we reached there, at 6.20, i think.
It was playing da last song.
But thank god, they played an encore due to da overwhelming applause.
Guess their not bad. On account that i only heard 1 and a half song.
So anyways, Sis tried taking photographs like a professional.
She does look a lil like it. But i thought she looked like a spy.
Walked around da Lake thang for awhile.
Was about 7.15 when we went to a nearby mosque and prayed.
It was like da second smallest mosque i've ever been to. Gosh.
Went to have dinner after that!!
Ate Chicken Cutlet at Banquet.
Surprisingly everyone ate like so much. LOL.
Seriously, we kept exchanging food wit each other.
Daddy said that people were looking at us feeding each other and all.
Hah. We kept buying more and more food. GOD!
Then later this morning, mommy and me thinks that we ate alot yesterday,
Probably cos we didnt read the Do'a before eating,
So the satan was eating wit us. (The Islamic belief)
Anyway, am off to play badminton wit younger sissy.
Ciao suckers.

2005-04-30T08:06:00.000-07:00

What makes someone really happy?
You know, those kind of happiness that you even start doing things right.
Is it when you are being loved?
Knowing that someone is there for you?
Security? Is that it?
You know, sometimes i feel that those things aren't important.
Like, really. Sometimes, im even disgusted by it.
But other times, i wish i felt that way.
I wish i feel that someone would be there for me.
But come to think of it,
Dont you have to learn to be independent?
Stand on yer 2 lil feet?
So why does it feel as if i need someone to turn to?
When i have a mind of my own?
People think love is sweet and kind and wonderful,
And all the good things in life.
But is it really good?
Does it really make you feel like you'll never have another problem ever?
Does it feel as if you own the world?
Or nothing will matter except u and yer love one?
There are so many things in life that people dont know.
But why wont they want to find out?
Do they just want to continue their life without knowing that,
Perhaps, there are even more things in life that are far more important.
Something else that would make em happy instead?
Why wouldnt they care?

Blurdy hell. Was a long day today.
Went tah school at 7.45 for a essay-writing course.
Was pretty okay. Learnt a few things here and there.
Was late by, what? A few seconds?
And it cost me an essay on the workshop. UGH.
So anyway, it ended at 12.45pm.
Went to Bishan to meet da committee for a meeting.
Ate peach waffle at cafe cartel and continued the meeting up till 6.
Went to a nearby "pasar malam" or night market,
To look for pajamas for a party during the June holiday camp.
Much more interesting activities this time.
Things like midnight movie, haunted thrill, amazing race and all.
Theme this yr is Girls night out, i think. Abit cliche, i think.
Whatever. Am watching Species II. Eerie.
Whats wit the aliens and all. Creepy.
Oh well, am talking to bro's gf.
Ciao.

2005-04-27T05:06:00.000-07:00

Here's to SAM!!
im updating BEE-atch. Hah.
**Laughs like an possessed person**
Wooo, Scarrryyyy.
Did that like loads of time yesterday.
Anyway, today was real fun.
No, actually TUESDAY was fun.
Stayed back wit a coupla of 3i's tah dance.
Using a oldie+retro typa song.
Its Elvis's Blue seude shoes or smth like dat.
Going on real well.
The idea is to have a hella of fun,
And be real craazy and retro and really mad.
Had another practice today at Lin's house.
Was better today tho,
But skipped Girl Guides. BAD.
Anyhoo, blurdy Mrs Raj had to scold me during EL AGAIN.
But Calvin "snapped" off a mealworm's head!!
Yuck.Ew.Yuck.Ew.Yuck.Ew.
But now i know a worm's blood is black,
And its blurdy watery. Seriously.
Cant wait for the next practice tho.
Me and li lin aced the sliding part.
**BOO YAH**
oh, oh, we cant be in da idol thingy tho.
Cos its spose' to be a vocal thingy.
But we're doing a dance,so,
Ms Zavier put us as an opening act,
Which is actually fine by me,
Cos obviously they cant have a whole group of
Retro assholes to be the Peicai Idol right? hah. duh.
Common tests are around da corner, GOD!!
28 more days till June Holidays.
Courtesy of Jeanie's handy-dandy calender+handbook.
Hah. Oh well, gotta rush my malay compo.
Ciao suckers.

2005-04-23T01:09:00.000-07:00

Its SATURDAY!!!!!!!
Tests are over, baaaabbyyy!
Wooot. But i have 2 weeks left.
To catch up in class,
Just in time for Common Tests, and after that,
Its the holidays!!!!!!!!
Weeeeeeeeeee. Enjoying e moment here.
Am listening to California by Phantom Planet.
Its blurdy addictive!
Anyway, still have not bathed altho its 4.15pm
I have nowhere to go anyway, so what e heck.
I still need to design a tee-shirt,
For some camp thing for sec 3s.
Cant wait for that.
I still need to plan another camp for guides.
But thank god one day is gone.
Cos Pierce scouts are helping us.
Woooohooooo. Not much work!!!
(They were very, very prepared for e meeting)
Anyhooos, speaking of camp.
The camp in Denmark seems so far away.
They have yet to send ANY letters to us,
To brief us on e camp, which i cant wait to go.
Well, probably cos e camp's in the end of July.
Duh. Im so dumb!
Trying to raise funds by baking cookies.
Daddy's helping me sell them. Thank god!
I just need to raise at least a thousand.
Oh well, im gonna hang out wit my parents.
Weeee. Its gonna be sooo "fun".
Unless they have $$ involved.
Ciao!

2005-04-20T03:53:00.000-07:00

Came back early today.
Like, REALLY early. Hah.
Went home wit Sam, who blurdy gimme a punch.
A HARD punch. 3 blurdy times,
And now i have a friggin blue black.
So different and "unique".
Friggin hell, SAM!! you're sooo gonna get it tmrw.
Crap ALOT wit sam today. Haha.
There was this emergency what shit exercise.
Hah. We were all spose' to go in a hurry whatsoever.
And sam, milli, lynn, bises and i purposely walked so so slow.
Only that bises and lynn had to be all so goody,
And so they "pang-sey-ed" us. Boo.
It made us skip our CME class
And half of Mother-Tongue. hah.
That was when the fun began.
Decided to walk real slow so we could skip classes.
More of like skip Geography test.
Purposely walked a long way,
But SOME nerds had to spoil e fun.
But me, milli, sam and li lin wanted so so much to skip classes.
So we walked an even longer way,
And then we thought of reasons to skip classes.
Like, PUSHING ME DOWN! hah.
We spent a blurdy long time in da toilet and
spent a long time just trying to find reasons to tell da tcher.
But ended up not getting to answer!!
Boo. Haha. Today was quite a day.
Tried so so hard to skip classes.
Oh well, Have 2 more tests.
Both on Friday. Blurdy Physics and Malay.
Dreadful.
Am gonna watch Hope&Faith.
Friggin hilarious.
Ciao babe-os.

2005-04-17T07:00:00.000-07:00

A post before i sleep.
Yeap, im sleeping early today.
Have my 2.4km run tmrw.
Am watching the apprentice now.
Quite bitchy and all.
Anyways, mom scolded me and sissy just now.
Practically shouted at our ears.
She gave me a good smacking,
Just cos i was sitting the nearest to her,
And she was holding a hanger.
It kinda hurt, but what the heck, i deserve it.
Skipped classes today. That caused it all.
Okay, maybe it is my fault,
But mommy didnt have to beat me!
Anyway, all the time she was scolding us,
I tried to take in all her words, but i couldnt.
Its like as if its too loud for me.
Like her words didnt make any sense at all.
After mommy scolded us, obviously i felt hurt,
Cos she beat me up and so, i cried.
Yeap, me cry. In the toilet.
And then i prayed to Almighty God, Allah, to forgive me.
And since mommy said we were e most laziest kids she ever heard of,
I did the laundry, which includes,
Drying, Washing and Folding,
And cleaned up e place a lil.
(Im serious, when i get a house of my own,
I am SOOOOO gonna clean it everyday)
And then i proceed to my malay hw.
Which is still incomplete.
Im still left wit Summary and Maths TYS!!
Oh well, have SS test on Tuesday too.
And Geog, and Physics. Gosh.
Oh well, i better get my sleep.
Long day tommorrow.
Ciao suckers.

2005-04-16T23:58:00.000-07:00

Okay, its 3 o'clock on a Sunday afternoon,
and i have not bathed.
Its normal isnt it?
Anyway, am not gonna put up my tagboard for awhile.
Doing a lil experiment.
Anyways, skipped my religious class today.
Reason? er, i have a blurdy test tmrw?
Its malay test actually. And its spelling.
Like wtf? I dont have to study. Hah.
Anyway, just downloaded ARES lite.
But blurdy hell, its not working.
How come my brother's account can use it?
Fuck him. He always gets everything in his way.
Like our disney channel? He locks it! Fucking hell.
Its like he owns it or smth.
And he made sure our account cant dwl any music,
So he can uses his on advantage.
His so so so so fucking selfish.
Anyway, if anyone, ANYONE,
Knows a way to dwl music, FREE music,
Do e mail me yeah? Im blurdy desperate.
Do it ere' : ira_slayer@hotmail.com
In e meantime, im gonna try to hack my bro's acct.
Ciao suckers.

2005-04-12T06:11:00.000-07:00

Olritey.
Changed my skin, yet again.
Really, i have nothing better to do.
For e 1st time, I waved at him!
Woohooo! I so totally rock.
Anyhoos, im such an asshole.
I ate 1 friggin chocolate today.
Im suppose to be banned frm eating those.
Im so not doing well right now.
Well 1stly, iv been getting into loads of trouble.
My grades are falling,
(no not really, cos iv not been taking any tests yet.)
Im not friggin losing weight.
I keep wasting time.
And my house is in a mess!
BOO. This sucks.
Anyhoos, school was okay today.
Was Gracie's b'dae today.
Happy B'dae yeah?
Oh oh, she's now my ass. Quarter Mistress!
Ha-di-ha. I shall bully her.
Stayed back today too. Did a lil of homework.
I friggin finished my malay hw. A miracle.
Saw Amirah at e interchange today.
Chatted for a lil while.
We can really catch things up, if only we had e time.
Okay, im left wit 54 more SCHOOL days,
before my Denmark trip.
I hope with all this counting,
I would still be able to go in e end.
Sometimes i feel that whatever i keep wishing for.
And i mean wish for, hard,
It doesnt happen.
It always leave me in depression.
Anyways, this week and next week is gonna be a real work.
Tests are filling in my weeks and all.
Which means that i have to start studying,
And listening in class.
Now, THAT's hard work.
Am watchin' Ms Congeniality 2 now.
Blurdy hilarious.
But i so prefer the 1st one.
Gonna do my workouts now.
Ciao.

2005-04-08T19:20:00.000-07:00

Okay, i skipped school yesterday.
AGAIN. weeeee.
2 days in 1 month. I'll have a gd attendance record.
Hah. Did nothing at home actually.
Except mommy making me fold clothes and iron.
But im earning money for that so its okay.
Watched movie after movie after movie.
Then met Lynn at 4.30 at interchange.
Went to Kovan to get a cap.
Wasnt really nice but time wasnt promising,
So i had to get it yesterday.
It was only 9.90!!! The cheapest i could find. lol.
Anyhoos. am watching video clips.
Ciao.

2005-04-05T05:16:00.000-07:00

Seriously tot everything would be okay,
But boy, dont i always find ways to screw it up!
Why cant i just be brave enuff to say hi to him?
UGH. I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!
You know what? SCREW IT!
screw all this. screw HIM!
Im going Denmark!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wooohoooo. Tho they brought back e date.
Instead of 23rd of july, its 29th instead.
BOO! That means we have to wait LONGER!!
That sucks. Hmmm. But hey, i get to skip school!
Oh well. tried to understand maths lesson just now.
i am so gonna flunk my common test this month.
Altho, im glad God helped me concentrate during Chem.
Am glad. for e 1st time, i listened to Mdm Tan.
And not just listen, but understand her words!!
Woooohooo!! I ROCK! lmao.
Anyhoos, i g2g. Ciao.

2005-04-02T00:04:00.000-08:00

i am so so STUPID.
I had it all along!
I mean, it was almost there.
We were fine. And then came april's fool.
Ugh. I shoulda known.
Now he'll think im such an idiot.
DAMMIT!!!!!!

Okay, im not gonna start freaking out.
Im gonna go get a new skin,
Cos this one's fucked up.
Da words aren't right and all.
So yeah, Till later.

2005-03-25T20:11:00.000-08:00

Finally, finally!!!!!!!!!!!!
Activated my GPRS!
Wooohooooo. BOO.
Anyways, have some seminar today.
IF the tickets aren't sold out!
Or me and sissy are going out instead.
Its blurdy 3 hrs for goodness sake!
Hope its worth my time.
Okay, iv been reading loads of books.
And i mean, LOADS!
Okay, until yesterday,
I've read at least 5 books, in er, 2 weeks!
Weeeeeeeeeee!! imma BOOKWORM!
Oh well, have nothing else to talk about.
Ciao.

2005-03-21T18:30:00.000-08:00

Spose' to be at school.
But what the heck?
I havent finished ma maths homework.
Boo. So i decided to skip school to complete it.
Im such a cow. HAH.
Anyhoos, yesterday was the 1st day of school.
And it blurdy well sucked.
ENGLISH period sucked anyway.
I mean, dont get me wrong,
I ADORE the english language, but,
The teacher is just such a nuisance.
Not trying to critisice her or anything,
Not that i could tell,
But its just that her lessons are plain BORING!
Seriously, she doesnt know how to conduct her lessons well.
Even Mr Seow knows how to do his job better,
And i dont even like him.
So anyways, the day continued to be even worse.
Stayed back real late.
To complete Maths of course. Boo.
Miss Yeo helped alot tho. Thanks yeah?
Waited for lynn at the same time.
Okay, fine, u caught me.
Also him. No, no. I didnt exactly wait for him.
Its just so that he was having training, so yeah.
You get the point.
It was boring tho. On e way home, i meant.
Lynn was constantly with Bises, And Sharon wit Rosan.
And that bloody Wee chuan, has to disturb them.
So there i was, feeling like the 5th person.
Well, not really, cos there was Wee Chuan.
Anyway, HE walked too fast and i seriously wanted to catch up,
But the lovebirds had to walk slowly,
So i was influenced.
But i didnt want to show any signs,
So i followed their pace. Which i hated.
Im just used to walking real fast.
And now i know where i got it from. MOM!
Well, all i know is, His haircut is spectacular.
(Look, im even using BIG words!! See how nice it is?)
He looks really really.... NEAT!
No kidding.
So anyways, just finished reading
Shopaholic Ties Knot, Sophie Kinsella.
(Not that im "advertising" her book or anything.)
Im just too caught up wit the characters of the book.
They sound so different from Asian couples.
What i mean is, Asian couples, they just focus on Romance.
But these British couples, they argue!
I mean, they have their own sense of humor,
And the other partner actually understands it and goes along wit it.
Unlike Asian couples, they dont geddit and just shrugs.
Well, MOST of the Asian couples i guess.
Its just different.
I love to argue wit my partner one day.
I dont want him to treat me so good i'll start feeling irritated.
Seriously. Its, well, DISGUSTING!!
Oh well, i better start on my homework.
Due date's tmrw. Gotta rush!
Orr, i could always skip school again.
Could i?

2005-03-17T15:31:00.000-08:00

Oh my goodnessssss!!
Im one of the early birdies that got ready!!
My older sister is the 1st, as usual.
Second has got to be my younger sister,
Then its my mom, and then its ME!!!!!
ME, ME ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ha-ha. My daddy's last.
So which means to say,
I DIDNT LOSEEEEEEEEEE!!
BOO. Hah.
Anyhoos, waiting for DADDY to get ready,
And then we're off to KL for 2 days.
2 FRIGGIN' DAYS!!
Just 2 days!!! What the heck?!?
Just cos DADDY couldnt get off for more days.
BOO. that sucks.
Anyhoos, gotta be lucky.
At least i get to get away from homework and stuff.
Oh god, school's in 3 days time!!
Oh my god, help me! Im SUFFOCATING!!
But hey, at least im going SHOPPING!!
Weeeeeeeeeeeee. Loads of things tah buy.
Seems like iv been missing out on him.
Nothing about him for like at least a week.
Which is good.
Which means im ALMOST over him.
Yeyy!! Okay, that sucks.
I DONT WANNA get over him!!
BoooHoooo!!
Oh well, think DADDY's ready now.
Im off fer now.
Boo!

2005-03-15T01:42:00.000-08:00

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2005-03-14T18:05:00.000-08:00

Okay, thanks to WEE CHUAN,
my hair is full of sand.
He friggin' buried me in them.
Oh well, was much fun yesterday.
Im all red now. But i feel sick.
I feel so warm and blurdy hot.
My parent's hate me now cos i came back late.
What the heck. They cant stay mad at me all e time.
Im their daughter for goodness sake!
They'll get over it.
Yeap, bout yesterday.
Met up wit lynn at 9 at her place. Changed and everything
My shoes are still there, and her sis's slipper are here lol.
Anyhoos, met up wit Sharon, Bises, Rosan and Wee chuan
At tha interchange at 10. Spose tah meet Sam, but we came earlier,
And plus they wanted to eat, so Sam, sorry bout that yeah?
So on da way, me and Wee chuan were the lonely assholes,
Cos lynn was wit Bises and Sharon was wit Rosan,
But Wee chuan's okay i guess. His funny, well not really.
He was upset wit things i shouldnt brag about in ere.
But after that he was okay.
When we reached Sentosa, went straight into da water.
Was really cold despite the warm weather.
Wee Chuan kept disturbing the love birds,
So i was sort off left alone at first.
If only HE was there. Gee.
Anyways, went to this big floaty thing in e middle of da sea.
Only Lynn, Bises, Wee chuan and i went there,
Cos Sharon and Rosan wanted to hanky-panky.
Haha, nah. They couldnt swim.
Spent like a full 3 hrs in da water.
After that the guys went biking and we girls tanned.
And played vball of course.
I think it was abt 2 when Jeanie and all of em arrived.
Oh well. Didnt do much at the beach.
Just swam and tanned and played vball thats all.
Im like so damn tired now.
When i came home yesterday, slept thru da night.
Oh well, getting smth to eat.
Ciao.

2005-03-13T01:07:00.000-08:00

Omg, there was a sudden improvement.
HE MESSAGED ME!! i mean, messaged me BACK.
Congratulations.
Oh god, that sounds sooo insultive.
Sorry baby. i didnt mean that.
Anyhooooos, sometimes i feel he messages me back,
Cos his just bored. Or worse,
HE PITY MEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh my god, NO NO NO NO NO NO!
That's the worse thing that should happen!
Olrite, anyway, holidays are here baby!!
WOOOOHOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Time to enjoy!!
You know, i feel like these past few weeks,
Iv been working TOO hard. Like seriously.
Especially wit the new class and all.
And time passes sooo quickly.
I seriously miss my previous class, definitely.
We were so united lol.
More like united in getting TROUBLE!
Yeap, 2f's famous fer that, i remember.
So is 3i now. Gee, teacher's been like,
"Your class is suppose to be one of the best class,
and many teachers expect good behaviour from yr class"
Good behaviour my ass.
Oh well, going to da beach tmrw.
Not confirmed. But lynn and sharon are going wit their boys.
And i? Again left alone.
Just like the other day. Oh god.
And now they're gonna ask HIM to come.
Oh i wish he can make it!!
Oh please, please let him make it!
But i hope he wont chicken out cos of me.
Then i'll be such a loser cos he wants to avoid me.
Oh heck, if he does that, it obviously means,
HIS NOT A GREAT GUY AFTERALL.
Altho, i wanna be in his arms.
Oh well, its all FANTASIES.
GO DREAM DAMMIT!!
no no, i should not.
Dreams may not come true,
But i can sure work on them.
Oh well, time to work tha magic then.
Ciao, wish me lucky luck yeah?

2005-03-11T03:14:00.000-08:00

Whats the use if we're together,
But we dont say anything?
It's like we're strangers all over again.
Which means more work has to be done.
His starting to message me back, what an improvement.
It seems like im forcing him to reply, but no.
This time, I stopped messaging him first.
I mean, i ended it first. Yey!
Im trying so hard to avoid him. But gosh, it has to be so tough.
It really is. His just so, so,
No words can describe him.
He might seem like a bad person, actually he doesnt,
But people says he does, i think, whatever,
To me his not.
Anyway, even so, i see this part of him dat wants to be good.
I mean, he wants to be a good person.
Whenever i see him alone, he's face gets all innocent.
Its like his a good and decent person.
But when his wit his friends, its like that face changes.
He'll have this tricky look in him.
THAT i dont understand.
But hey, thats him. I certainly dont mind.
Hah. But i guess i'll never get to change that person inside.
Gee, it suddenly seems all so surreal.
Its like its the month of love or smth.
Everyone's in couple and all.
Oh god, i just realised that. Wow.
Hmmm, i seriously cant resist it.
But why doesnt he speak.
When his innocent, i wish he would speak to me.
Im like a friggin wall to him. Its like im not there.
We dont communicate no more.
We're strangers all over again. Its weird.
When will things develop?
When will the sparks come?
Guess it'll never will.
Im such an idiot!

2005-03-09T04:29:00.000-08:00

Okay, i know iv mentioned this before.
But i just cant resist it anymore.
i HAVE to mention this. His just soooo cuteeee today.
Okay, minus his stupid boring face.
You know what, i just wish he would read this and understand me.
But i so know that he'll ignore and avoid me,
Once he knows i like him. I bet so.
I can see it from his face. His hating ME!!!!
HE FARKING HATES ME!! ARGHHH.
Okay, take this scenario.
A guy, whom u were close with last time,
You joked wit him, He joked wit u.
You never run out of things to say, ur always laughing wit him.
Basically just having fun wit him always.
But there comes a period when he suspects his frens are putting
You and Him together and he doesnt like it,
But u dont mind, BUT, u dont want it too,
Cos you KNOW that he wont like it and u dont want him
to not like it cos u like him, duh,
But ur friends keep forcing him and stuff like dat,
And he gets so so irritated by it, that he ignores YOU instead.
But u just miss him and u wish he would miss u too.
And, u tried messaging him, but he doesnt message u back,
And he gives stupid excuses like his in no mood,
But replies other people instead.
Which gives u the biggest hint, his AVOIDING YOU!
What do u do? Still talk to him?
Avoid him too? Or what?
Maybe i should just stop liking him and give up.
Maybe god is trying to tell me dat his not the one for me.
Maybe his telling me that, "GO GET A LIFE! HE HATES YOU!"
What if he finds me annoying and wants me to leave him alone?
Maybe i should then.
Okay, from now on, i'll leave him alone.
I wont say hi, wont talk to him, try not to see him.
But oh, i cant resist it. His just so adorable.
Seriously he is. If only i could tell him that.
But maybe i shouldnt expect too much. Maybe i should learn to relax.
And not expect things to always get in my own way.
Anyway he still likes his ex-girlfriend,
So i stand no chance.
So why am i not giving up?
Argh. JUST FORGET HIM LAH DAMMIT!! Gee.

2005-03-04T16:32:00.000-08:00

The first official thing dat happened,
IM NOT GONNA SWEAR ANYMORE!
im serious. Unless its outta my mouth accidentally.
But if not, NO, im not gonna swear.
Anyhoos, here's e second official thing,
He hates me.
A huh. Its official. H-A-T-E-!-!-!
Maybe he did not say it straight to my face,
But its a bit obvious. I mean, the way he
You know what, forget it. I promised before.
Im not gonna speak of HIM in my blog.
Unless something magical happens.
Which will NEVER happen, so no more mentioning him.
Okay, today's my interview at the HQ.
Oh gosh, im nervous, yet not so nervous.
Havent done much research. I mean reading.
Iv done all e research and all, its just dat im lazy to read.
So me lilin, jin man and misha are gonna like meet up and discuss.
LOL. altho, i dont know what people "study" for interviews.
I just hope i dont freak out if i cant answer the qn.
How shall i go? "Erm, i dont think i know the exact answer 2 yr Qn,
But im gonna try?!?!?"
I'll be out definitely. But not EVERYONE is perfect.
Hoping that all the things iv rehearsed in my head wont blank out.
I keep imagining what would happen next before even doing it.
This is bad. Imagining and not exactly DOING it,
May be sad. Cos what if i dont get in?!
I'll be soooo soooo depressed im not gonna go to school for a week!
No, wait, i wanna met my "friend"/s.
But anyways, i keep thinking how my life would be,
If i get to go Denmark. It'll be spectacular.
My life would be ALMOST perfect.
Altho im happy wit my life right now. I dont know how lucky i am.
Comparing wit my life wit real people out there.
Who has bigger problems than me.
Problems concerning real life. Unlike mine. Its nothing 2 em.
I wish there'd be some way i could help em.
Not just any ordinary help. Something that could change their lifes.
But. Maybe when im older i guess.
Maybe from now on, i shall start changing my life.
Stop spending so much money. Stop complaining.
Stop fantasizing. Stop getting angry too often.
Stop being angry wit my parents.
Just stop all those bad stuff.
BUT,, im never ever gonna stop punching Sam and ma mates.
Hah. Especially sam. **Watch out girlfriend**
She caused me a collection of bruises.
On my left arm and a lil on my right.
Its hideous i tell you. Im so lucky i dont wear sleevless shirt out.
Or people might think i have cancer or smth.
Oh well, for me to go to Denmark and not fantasizing,
I shall start reading da notes.
Wish me luck for da interview!

2005-02-25T02:30:00.000-08:00

Today's Sports Day.
Kinda boring. Wait, it IS boring.
Went Seoul Garden wit lynn and sharon b4 dat.
Lynn and i bet on who can eat more.
Cos she like ate 4 bowls of rice, and she went like,
"Im like only 50% full?!?!?"
So we went like, "Okay, lets see who eats more."
Sharon help us take like a plate-ful of chicken.
And after we cooked it, both of us ate like a pig.
No, actually, LYNN ate like a pig. Haha.
Nah, she lose anyways.
Oh well, I think he hates me now.
I know for sure where i stand now.
I have like a negative chance wit him.
Its not dat i wanna be wit him.
I just want to tell him!
Oh well, he told me clearly that he still liked his ex girlfriend.
So i'll just try to fantasize on my plans.
Oh yea, my fucking leg hurts like fuck!!
Fucking Sam and her fuka-lala. hahah. Jokes babe!
She fucking punched me at my thighs and arm.
Like at the same spot+many times.
But at least all dat punching, made Nutan's punch-mark disappear.
Am sure gonna miss it. Been wit me for at least 2 wks. Hah.
He FUCKING HATES meeee!!!!!!!!!!
Maybe he thinks im just another fucked-up girl,
Trying tah annoy him.
Oh well. Most probably am gonna go gym wit Sam tmrw.
Really hope she can delay her piano lessons!!
More punches!! Haha. Watch out sam!!
Anyhoos, gonna call lynn.
Ciao.

2005-02-21T02:44:00.000-08:00

Okay, im gonna start wit tmrw.
Arghhhhh. FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!
Tmrw's da fucking thinking dayyyyy.
Oh wella, im da flag raiser and i dont know how tah raise da flag.
Gordon taught me a lil.
Omg, what if it drops suddenly.
I'll be like the joke of e year, plus i bet i'll be banned from da pole!
Anyhoos, tried waiting for him.
But i guess his training HAS TO END LATE!!
ARGHHHHHH!! But anyways, it doesnt matter.
Fate's just not there i guess.
Im depressed. depressed, DEPRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I fucking suck at chemistry!!
Wait, firstly, i wanna apologize to my Shaun.
Sorry doode, im always staying back i know.
Spare me this time please. Thanks.
Okay, i think i need to make a deathwish list soon.
Things i really need to do before i die. MUST.

Things to do before i die:
1. TELL HIMMM!!!!! (this is to be done by my Lynn cos she knows)
2. Go to one of these places.
[i]Canada
[ii]Denmark
[iii]New Zealand
[iv]Germany
[v]Africa
3. Get my o level certificates.
4. At least work once, so i can pay my parents my bills.
5. Do something for the poor or disabled. Something GREAT. like volunteer work.
6. Repent from all my sins.
7. Be prepared to answer to god.
8. Make my parent's happy. I meant, REALLY happy.
9. Open an Islamic Hospital in Canada.
10. Be one of the top students in school, even tho it'll be so low among other schools.

So there it is. My 10 deathwish list.
Somehow, i feel 10 is common,
So here's another.
11. Get my car license when i turn 18 + a BMW car.

Yeap. I like BMW.
Actually i like many others, But i want a BMW.
No, No, i want a LEXUS!!
Okay, i can change my fantasies to real.
Gotta work on dat noww!!

2005-02-17T06:59:00.000-08:00

Just finished helping Nutan search his wooden boxes.
Oh my gawd, am soooo sleepyyyy.
Wasted loads of time at the interchange just now,
But what the heck.
It was fun.
Nutan started teasing me abt smth and all.
And there's this drink called KICKAPOO,
And i kept pronouncing it as KICKAPOO.
(See, doesnt the spelling and pronouncation match well?)
But Nutan and Bises said it was suppose 2 be pronounced as,
KICKAPO.
And we kept fighting abt that.
But decided to ask the Auntie who sells it,
Who didnt understand what we were asking her cos
She doesnt understand english,
So Nutan and I had to speak to her like a retardo.
But she pronounced it as KICKAPO tho. Harumph.
Oh well, am gonna take ma rest now.
Ciao.

2005-02-16T06:37:00.000-08:00

Gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
EVERYTHING GONEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!
Fucking computer.
Im not gonna type much in ere'.
It'll be a waste anyway.
Im just gonna summarise what i typed just now.
1. Common test are coming and im not prepared for chemistry.
(even tho there's a chemster sitting right behind me.)
2. Im the flag raiser for guides thinking day. Yey.
im not in da stinking contigent. But wait, dat means i cant ponteng school!!
Argh, dammit!
3. Im chickening out on telling him slightly abt how i feel.
(I guess some feelings are meant to be kept by onself)
4. I cant fucking sleep so dats why im posting now.
Oh well, im gonna straighten up my life now.
Ciao.

2005-02-11T21:24:00.000-08:00

Its sooo surprising,
But somehow, it feels like the comp's real fast today.
Maybe its cos iv changed somehow.
Im beginning to pray 5 times a day.
Okay, 4, but im trying.
Iv just realise how important it is to pray to god.
Like, everyone around me can be clever and brilliant and everything,
And so can i, but i have extra help, dat is the Almighty god.
Omg, i feel so religious.
Anyhoos, iv been thinking,
To succeed in life, one must not just work hard,
But realise what lies beneath them.
Its like, sometimes, people think they cant do it,
But in reality, if they really put their heart and mind into it,
They can really succeed and find out their true talent.
If everyone else, who was born the same as i am,
Can succeed and get what they want,
Then why cant i?
I think its really about time for me to start making decisions
Like what am i gonna do after this and all.
Actually, i thought about it before.
Mommy made me do it and i know exactly what i want.
Its just about taking the next step.
Okay, nuff' bout these talks.
I gotta run. Going tah town wit sissy.
Ciao.

2005-02-11T03:48:00.000-08:00

this is her pretty sister.
im in her acct because i have to put the tagboard for her.
and why do i have to do that?
because she doesn't know how to do it.
hahaha.
loser.
bye kids.

2005-02-10T22:36:00.000-08:00

i feel so motivated.
By my mom of course.
One day, when my name's up, im so putting my mom's name up too.
Nurul Ameerah, Daughter of Zuraida Mustafa.
Course i didnt forget my daddy's name.
Its actually in my name, so its okay. Hah.
Oh well, mommy motivated me today.
Maybe cos i came home early and all.
And my maths teacher called, dats why.
We were like making fun of her and all.
Mommy started saying "I thanked her and said ' I really appreciated ur help' "
And i went like, "So what did she say?"
"Oh, she just laughed."
Then we laughed. I went like," Omg really? Was it like this?"
Then i started laughing like her.
Its actually not bad to hang out wit ma mom.
Cos when she's in da mood, she'll crap around wit u.
LOVE MY MOMMY ALOTTTTTTT!!
Okay lol. I know i should have love her always, but i just love her
MORE now. LMAO.
The curtains in da living room is really pissing me off.
Ugh. Am so bringing it down now.
Ciao.

2005-02-03T22:04:00.000-08:00

My tagboard's not up, cos my account fucked up,
Im failing my class tests, [except physics, YEY!]
I cant download music on ma comp,
And my so-called love-life is a failure.
Come on, tell me, WHO DOESNT CARE ABT THEIR LOVE LIFE?!?
i know I do!!
Anyways, there's always a better side in life.
Like, HE SAID HI TO ME!!
I have my friends to count on,
I PASSED MY PHYSICS TEST!
and at least i know MY family loves me.
What? THAT is my love life ain' it?
Okay, anyways, life's been hectic.
Actually, not really, im just too lazy to log on.
Everyday after school, i either watch TV
Or do my homework.
I dont have thee time. Hah.
So today i came home early, cos my sista didnt
Fucking picked up her phone to confirm e place we're meeting.
Spose' to go Far East wit her to window shop.
But i guess it doesnt matter to her,
cos her school's like fucking near Far East.
Plus she's been there too many times PER week!!
Going there on Saturday anyway. Wit Li Lin. Yey.
Ear-ring shopping.
I have yet to buy bikini wit lynn. Planning to get 1 yesterday.
Anyways, suppose to go tanning wit her today!!
But fuck, she HAS to have training and her bloody PMS.
oh well, im gonna slack at home thee whole dayyy!!
Am off to eat lunch. Oooh oooh, DADDY'S HOMEEE!!

2005-01-25T01:17:00.000-08:00

Yey. Changed ma skin.
Got this from da blogskin thingy.
Caught ma eye. The pictures i meant.
Omg, im like totally hooked to greenday!!!!
Arghhhhhhhh!! Love it like fuck!
Anyhoos, school's same.
Had to unpick my school skirt.
Which i realise, was preety short, i guess.
But hey, doesnt affect me in any way.
Its just fucking school, god.
Oh yey, this friday, i think, am gonna skate wit SHAUN!!
Gosh cant wait.
Omg. Am suppose to go to de airport wit him today.
Argh. Oh wella.
IM GONNA QUIT GUITAR!!
Yey, lol. But Ms Loh was like "clinging" onto us.
Everyone's gonna quit!! Ditch her pathetic club before speech day.
Altho, im very sure i'll regret it somehow. I always do anyways.
Everything i decide nowadays, goes e opposite way in e end.
Like, i predict something good would happen.
It'll turn out bad.
Maybe god is tryin tah tell me smth.
Oh grrreattt, i forgot bout ma fucking tagboard.
I dont even know why i fucking bother.
Maybe cos im living life like shitnitz dat i have to share it to da world.
Congratulations to me.
Oh wella, am putting ma tagboard.
Sooo gonna fuck off.

2005-01-23T20:33:00.000-08:00

I'll take back my word on ma last post.
I WILL post for awhile now.
Ditched school and decided to hang at home.
Was having doubts abt it and all,
But oh hell, im having a time of my life here.
Thinking of changing blog skin.
Am sick of this one.
Since i have e fucking WHOLE day, I think imma start now.
Oh gosh, im beginning to fucking swear.
Must be those unrated porn show i watched wit sissy yesterday.
i AM being influenced!!
Fucking hellll!!

2005-01-23T02:14:00.000-08:00

I think im influenced.
Seriously, i am.
From now on, i think im gonna stop thinking abt guys.
Not that im obsessed wit them or anything.
Im gonna concentrate on improving my self-image.
Internal as well as external.
Am gonna concentrate on getting out of Singapore,
And planning on what to do once im outta ere'.
But 1 thang im looking forward next week,
Is am gonna start skating wit Shaun!!
His gonna show me his tricks and all dat.
Gee cant wait. Anyhoos, dont think im gonna update for awhile.
Am sick of the internet-world.
Blah. Fucking sheeitttt.!

2005-01-11T03:49:00.000-08:00

Oh my gawwwwddd, been like a friggin long timeee.
Anyhooos, school's IN now, so im like dammit busy.
School's been like a fuckwittage nowadays.
Lessons are fine, blah blah. More of like people.
Im like fucking pissed off right now.
And im NOT SUPPOSE to be?!?!?!?!?
Like, come on.
"FRIENDS ARE FUCKING CLOSE TO HEART NOT BY FUCKING DISTANCE!!"
Olrite, am gonna calm down now.
Im not afraidd. I have a very loving family.
Caring best friends, and a wonderful life.
I should live it to da fullest. This may all be happening..
But god, Oh god, things happen for a reason!!
Am not trying to be like a mean bitch, but its me.
Gosh, im a HUMAN?!?!?!? I have feelingsss.
I dont make the perfect decisions, and neither do u.
You know what, it doesnt matter anymore.
If swearing solves everything, then here it goes.

Tick-tock, tick-tock
Tick-tock, tick-tock
What you waiting
What you waiting for
So when you see me on your blog with two glocks
Screamin Fuck the World
I just don't give a fuck
Talkin that shit behind my back,
dirty mackintellin your gurls that I'm on crack
I just don't give a fuck

Blah blah, it sounds funny.
Hah, nah, im just kidding.
I dont like to have enemies and fight.
God, i think its like fucking lame.
LOSERS fight.
Am gonna stop ere', for now.
Just FUCK off.

2004-12-23T23:01:00.000-08:00

Olrite. 2 days till HOLIDAY TIMEEE.
Okay, not really 2 days. 1 and a half more days.
Gosh, cant wait.
Oh well, tmrw's Christmas Dayyy.
Thanks a lot, Jas, for the prezzie. Its beautiful.
Anyways, true reason for a post.
Checking on hw list. Made improvements. Yey!

1) ~~MATHS problems. Over 200-over Qns~~.
2) Maths, the scenario thingy on e vacation.
3) ~~20 articles on Travel or Fashion~~.
4) Malay book review.
5) ~~Malay letter thingy~~.

So left 2 more. Am gonna finish it when i get back.
Guitar lessons are getting more fun these days.
I think cos Jerry has this idea dat we hate Ms Loh
And he understands. Thank god.
And i realised his actually quite famous. Too famous in fact.
Oh well, am gonna touch up on hw.
Wish ENJOY for me for ma hols. Toodles.

2004-12-20T20:58:00.000-08:00

Im obsessed

With a BOOK

Not just any book..

Its called...

THE MAKE-UP GIRL

I totally recommend it. Its REALLY REALLY niceee!
Oh well, off to do my hw.

2004-12-18T18:00:00.000-08:00

Celebrated Shir's belated b'dae 2 days agoo...
Was fun i guess, except dat it was raining.
Plus Sam and i had to go off early.
And i met them at about like 4.30pm?
So didnt had much fun dat dayy.. Sad.
But no worries, we'll have more fun the next time yea?!?
**glances at the two retardedd girlfriends**
So neways, a week till my Genting trippp..
Yeahoooo. Cant waittt. Wanna get away from here.
From reality. Reality of finishing my homework.
Which i havent touched yet. Hey, its the holidays for goodness sake!!
You should have funn. doesnt ANYONE agreeee?!?!
So yea, bought new shoes and a couple of bras plus a new ZA eyeliner.
On Friday, went out wit mummy b4 meeting Sam and Shir.
Was funnnnnnn!!! Spent like hell, as usuallll.
Cant wait for another shopping trip.
Sam told me to check out some shops in Genting.
Bet it would be loads of funnnn.
I think i should start making my homework list just to wake me up.

1) MATHS problems. Over 200-over Qns.
2) Maths, the scenario thingy on e vacation.
3) 20 articles on Travel or Fashion
4) Malay book review.
5) Malay letter thingy.

Right, it might not seem a lot, but imagine doing it during e holidays.
Plus ALL of it are pure CRAP.
I mean, its last year's work. Why does anyone wanna study last year's work?
Oh oh, i know, is dat wat u call REVISION?
Am not gonna crap around anymore.
My new mission: To start and FINISH my holiday hw by next Sat
Better fuck off.

2004-12-11T01:36:00.000-08:00

Am backkkk. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Just to let you know, i went tah KL for erm 4 days.
Well its actually from Wednesday night to saturday morning.
But wat the heck. Was hella funnnnnnn.
Went tah sooo manyyy placces dat i dont think i could ever visit.
So its cool and all dattt.
We went tah Putrajaya, which iv been, lotsa times.
Went tah KLIA- Kuala Lumpur International Airport.
Which we went up to the Control Tower. Real fun!
Learnt about how to control the aeroplanes and stuffies.
My mom kept stressing about, Not Everyone gets to go up there.
So im like, "Wow, we're lucky" Which i didnt feel like.
Anyhoooos, went tah take da Sky Train there. And woahhh, was it funn.
It isnt like any ordinary sky train.
Its a bit faster than usual plus it has those turnaround tracks.
Like a roller coaster. Yeap.
So dats all on the 2nd day. The 3rd day, its the fun part.
Went tah KLCC SURIA thingy after breakfast. Which is the twin tower i suppose.
It took us until like erm, 12? So yea, been to the tower, of course.
My mom organizes the WHOLE damn thing. Iv been to every one of the places.
After going up the bridge thingy, went fer lunch den went tah PETROSAINS.
Which i conclude, is much much BIGGER than Science Centre.
I mean, really. It has a large amount of exhibitions and experiments.
Plus they let us take this molecule thingy, like a roller coaster ride.
Which operates at 20metres per minute. REAL SLOWWWW.
But its nice and all dat. The molecule thingy can fit like 9 people.
But there's 27 of us so we went different ways, DUH.
Took it wit kacang ful, baked beans, shafiqah and lyna.
Had lotsa funnn. Oh yea, we took this helicopter.
But its simulated i think. Whatever it is.
Anyways, after checking out Petrosains, went SHOPPINGGGG.
The least boring thing in the world!!
So yea, Sad tho, we were only given like 2 hrs? At which 30 mins was wasted.
Cos some have to go for prayer. Not to complain. Just sayin'.
Plus, i cant really go shopping when 2 of my friends dont know how to shop.
I mean, they just walk around i think. I dont know.
Just didnt feel right goin' shopping wit em, no offence.
Bought a bag, 2 pairs of earrings and a nightmare before xmas pencil case.
I think dats basically all. Spent a whole 21 Ringgit at Coffee Bean.
Wasted. Could have bought loads of other stuff. But enjoyed it anyways.
Didnt shop much so am planning to shop when going Genting on 26th i think.
Planning to buy as follows:
++Belt
++Long Skirt
++Non-sporty watch
Am not gonna make a long list cos i never fulfill them.
I kinda feel like just going wit the flow.
So yea, i think i should just go to the main point of my whole depression.
I MISS SOMEONEEEEEEEEEE!! [actually i kinda miss malaysia on the whole ewww]
I cant believe i said dat but reallyyy. 3 days wasnt enuff!
Olrite, so it isnt really the 1st and 2nd day. Its the 3rd day.
I really wish it would last longer.
I dont know wats wrong wit me. But i think i made a connection.
Wit someone i mean. Even baked beans did have 1. I think.
Well, i dont know if hers is the same but mine is amazing.
I was sitting at a booth and he was sitting outside.
Okay, lemme start from the beginning.
It all happened in KL Sentral. At KFC.
I was inside, at the booth and he was at the open area.
But we both can see each other. Or so i thought.
But the point is, i could see him. And he could see me. If he moves his eyes.
So i was like staring at places and him, a little.
Till i saw his eyes. I mean, i think he was looking at me too. I hoped.
But i kept looking at him and i think he looked back at times.
There was a connection. Somehow, i could feel him.
Until now, the feelings is still there.
I dont know whether i believe in love at first sight.
But i am very sure this is something new in my life.
I really wish i can see him again. One last time.
Just a glance. Anything.
I guess life's not meant to be granting wishes.
Or rather granting ANY of my wishes. Well, some maybe.
This is freaaaky. Im an anti-boy-girl-relationship kinda person.
Am not gonna think about this anymore. Never!
Orr... Not..

2004-11-30T17:20:00.000-08:00

Oh gawd. Guess what!?!?
My computer's alright!!
Except for the downloading music and stuff.
But at least i can still listen to some music.
Managed to dwl some. Yipeeeeeeeee!!
So neways, today and tmrw's my family chalet+barbeque thing
And im surprised how it had made people real angry. Wow. Amazing.
So anyways, Friday's my class bbq at East Coast.
Cant wait to see my fellow retarded girlfriends.
**Looks at Shir and Sam innocently**
This morning was awaken by the sound of screaming.
By my mom of course.
She was like, "MIRA WILL U WAKE UP OLREADI?!?"
Was sooo irritated. She kept blabbing about what i was suppose to do.
Like clean the fucking kitchen and wash the dishes and iron my own clothes.
UGH. I FUCKING NEED A MAIDDD!!
Really hope bibik can come back next year.
But ugh, why must she go to Saudi?!? Not fair. I booked her first.
Oh well. Went tah watched Shutter wit Li Lin yesterday. Much fun!!
Didnt wanna show her my new haircut cos it totally suck! lmao.
*Grins at Li Lin. LOSER!*
So neways. Went tah walk around to find each other's birthday prezzie.
Thinking of buying her a eeyore mug. (:
So anyways, Shutter's really nice. I mean the storyline is.
I love it. The ghost part, well, not so scary actually. Only the background music.
I like the part where Natre was clinging on Tun's neck. I think dats sweeet.
So yea, so much of ghost movies. Watched LOADS of them.
Oh yea, MY CAMP WAS FUCKING FUNNN. (not)
Im serious, we did so much FUN (borangg) things!!
Dont wanna brag about it due to a particular person dat i feel like killing.
Oh well, better get on my chores b4 mommy comes back.
Better fuck off.

2004-11-23T20:31:00.000-08:00

Sometimes i feel i have the worst computer in the so-called teenager's world.
Cos why? Theres nothing to do on this friggin comp.
The only things i can do are as follows:

1) Blog, like wat im doing now, durrhh.
2) Check my email.
3) Check my blog.
4) And serve other websites without any sound.

Gosh, how worse can it get?
Cant use the internet??!?!?
But hey, i have to be thankful to god dat i even have a comp..
Just imagine those in the third world country,,
They dont even have television!!!!
I am lucky. I am really lucky.
Lucky cos:

1) I have a loving family, altho, my younger sister is still IRRITATING!
2) I have a beautiful and cosy home to provide me wit a strong shelter.
3) Both my parents are still around.
4) Both my parents are fit enuff to wake me up frm my fantasies.
5) Still have a car.
6) Still have a comp, teevee, ma phone, room, bed, clothes, food, radio, dvds and vcds and all the technological stuff i think.
7) Can still go for holidays even tho its only Malaysia.
8) Parents dont abuse me.
9) I have part of my freedom.
10) Have siblings to pull me up from any misery, besides my younger sister durr cos she never cares about me.

See?!? I am lucky. Its just dat i cant see it..
From now on, i will do as follows:

a) Pray to god, 5 times a day+7 times a week+4 weeks a month+12 months a year.
b) Not shout at mommy when she asked me to do things.
c) Reduce the amount of watching movies, especially troy. Resist!
d) Make amends.
e) Not waste food. [Think abt the peeps in 3rd-world country]
f) Not shout at my sister when she messes room and ignores em'.
g) Shall help mommy tidy up room.
h) Fully concentrate on studies to achieve dreams.
i) Learn the abc's alpahabets by hard. [whoops!]
j) Make a new resolution list for next year. [?!?]
k) Dont blog too much. [uses too much energy which would lead to using too much electricity which would further lead to more burning of fossil fuels]
l) Get ready to go Seoul Garden wit guitar peeps!

Oh gosh, am really late.
Have not even bathed!
Argh, now i really gotta fuck off.

2004-11-22T01:16:00.000-08:00

A world filled wit music.
A world filled wit books.
A world filled wit fun and laughter and joy..
Dats wat my life's been lately.
Tho its the holidays, am sooo not filling anything like the hols.
I mean, come on.
I hardly go out. I mean.. HARDLY EVER!!
And i have not watched any movies. Not a single one.
The only place dat i always head for during the hols is SCHOOL.
Boring old school.
Like there isnt any other place better than prison..
In school, u have to FOLLOW the FUCKING RULES.
Cos if u dont, YOU GET PUNISHED.
just like prisoners.
Oh well, yesterday was my open house. So-called.
Spose to be fer ma aunts and 'cles on my momma's side.
Was fun i spose. What with everyone bein' happy and all.
Guess i wasnt inside..
There's something in him dat makes me wonder.
Why do people give up?
Is it cos they're not strong enuff?
Or is it cos they lost their faith and beliefs?
Its weird isnt it? How people can give up their life?
Why cant people motivate themselves?
Why cant they get up when they fall down?
I once read this book which made me realise something.

"The winners are not afraid of losing. The losers are.."

Oh well, lets jst leave how the world is today..
Anyhoos, been listening to loads of new music.
Firstly, Yellowcard, which i <3>Hilary Duff, I am:
I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
I'm powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am

2004-11-18T18:38:00.000-08:00

Yeahooooo!!
Much fun on Hari Raya on the first day till today!!
Collected luck loads and loads of cassshhhhh!!
Cant wait to go shopping again.
Weeeeeeeeeeee. Sad tho dat i couldnt turn up for the chalet.
**glances at Sam and Shir innocently**
So sorry babes.
We'll have another chalet, just the 3 of us next time okaysss?!?
Anyhoooos, past few days been hectic for me.
Been eating loads and loads of food..
But thank god, mummy is here wit me to lead me for a healthier life!
LOL. wat i meant was going for exercise.
Sad tho dat daddy's still fasting. If he were to join, i would be soo skinny now.
I go for walking/jogging every single morning.
Cant afford to grow fat again. Hate it.
Have to build up my body metabolism.
So yea, if im not wrong, i have guides actually today.
But darn i friggin forgotten.
Or rather, some peep jst dunt wanna inform me.
Was suppose to be at 1 oclock but changed to 8 oclock.
Like damn. And like, im in the committee?!?!
Ugh. Why am i such a failureeee?!?!!?!?!?!? WHYYY!?!?
I like this song tho.
Its by Yellowcard.
Sad dat my friggin ARES wont work and my msn too. Ugh.
My life's just getting better and better each day.

And I'm sure the view from heaven
Beats the hell out of mine here
And if we all believe in heaven
Then we will make it through
One more year, down here

2004-11-13T01:51:00.000-08:00

Am soo totally screwedddd!
Been really, REALLY busy wit the housework doing shiznit..
HARI RAYA is tomorrowww!!
I can finally eat in the open!!
Olright, dat sounds corny..
Anyhooos, mom's been really stressing me up!
She's been like, Can you hang up the curtains? Can u mop the kitchen's floor?
But hey, im always happy to do it,
Cause, WHO ELSE DOES?!?
So yea, im now waiting for the floor in the kitchen to dry,
so i can do another round of mopping cos according to mommy, the floor is still DIRTY!
Oh well, least i could still blog in the mean time.
So yea, went shopping wit Shir and Sam on Tuesday..
Had loads and loads of fun..
Screwed when my slipper fell off when running across the street cos it was raining.
Ugh, Note 1: Not to wear slipper when going shopping.
But took loads of neoprints and it really made my day..
Im gonna somehow try tah post it in here wen im done cleaning da hse.
Oh well, the kitchen's floor calling me..
Gotta run.
So am gonna eff off noww. Weeeee.

2004-11-07T02:19:00.000-08:00

I AM GOING SHOPPING.
SHOPPING
SHOPPING
SHOPPING
SHOPPING
SHOPPING
SHOPPING
SHOPPING
SHOPPING
SHOPPING
SHOPPING
SHOPPING
SHOPPING
SHOPPING
SHOPPING
SHOPPING
SHOPPING
SHOPPING
I am truly a shopaholic.
Seriously, i cant get enuff of shopping.
I think its the best sport/hobby EVER!
Anyhoooos, gonna go on Monday, i hope. **looks at Sam and Shir**
I have to go. Gotta prepare for some stuff.
Toodles.