Sunday, October 30, 2005
Cos well, i'm a sadist and a depressist, thats why.
Sometimes i feel like you treat me like SHIT.
You come to me when you feel like it,
And you leave me when you have someone else.
Its sad, SO SAD.
You hurting me even more.
Yeah, you can't imagine how hurt i am,
Whenever you say hello or goodbye.
You reply me, no doubt about that.
But do i still feel the sincerity in you?
God no. NOOOOO.
You talk to me like im nobody.
Like im just a passer-by.
And when you're upset, You come to me.
You tell me your problems.
And i take it seriously,
Really i doo.
But do you actually care about me?
About every little word i say to you?
Does it fucking mean a thing?
Or is it just words in the air.
And you forget it instantly.
I can feel it. Yes i can.
And you know what?
Iv tried SOOO hard. Just to make you HAPPY.
Just to see you smile.
I guess when the time comes,
You'll realise how much you mean to me.
And how deep you've stabbed me.
Cos when you do,
It'll be too late.
So yeap, i'm THAT DEPRESSED.
Its saddening i knaw.
Its not a big problem, but i can feel it coming.
And i just had to type it all down.
So yeap.
Im PATHETIC.
miz kicked the coke machine
9:13 AM
Saturday, October 29, 2005
We hogged into one of em machines at Far East.
Hah, tried to follow some of the cute poses.
And as you will see, didnt work out like it spose to be.
Hah, thats how lame we can get.
miz kicked the coke machine
5:03 AM
Wooh.
Finally found the time to update.
Been busy with shitass stuff.
And checking out different type of sickness and all.
Its interesting.
But at times, I really feel sorry for these people.
Like, the look in their eyes makes me wanna ask them,
"Are you depressed?"
Cos they look depress.
Like there's nothing to look forward in their life anymore.
Its sad.
Adam's in town.
He just got in like last night i think.
He has like no idea where he is now.
Haha, neither does Sara.
BOO YOU GUYS. x)
Cant wait to meet them.
Went out with DIDI and siti yesterday.
It was weird, cos dont really know siti. So yeah.
DIDI is grrreat. SUPER CUTE.
and super caring.
Really. I like Didi alot.
Gosh, its making me fall for DIDI.
HAH. TOO BAD. am already falling for didi.
Oh, i told HIM.
Yeap, he knows everything.
Its weird. I keep telling myself,
"DONT EFFIN TELL HIM, DONT EFFIN TELL HIM!"
But thereee, i HAVE to open my effin mouth.
But the thing is, i dont know how im spose to feel.
Like, "HEY, isnt it good?" You told him!
And he's okay about it.
But at times, i tell myself,
"Damn, why did i tell? He's gonna hate me"
I should have just kept it a secret for a long time.
Like maybe when we're closer i would drop e bomb,
Or i shouldnt have told him at all.
Now he's gonna think im a freak or smth.
I knaw people might just tell me,
Heck, just dont care what he thinks.
But i cant. Im paranoid. I care about what people think.
Unless its redundant stuff.
Oh well, i shall try to er, look at e brighter side or sumfink.
Bought Hari Raya clothes today.
Sort off, 2 of em was specially made or smth.
Bought a black pant suit for 88 bucks.
Okay, MOM paid for me, duhhh.
I CANNOT WAIT FOR MY B'DAEE.
$$$$$$$$$. Wooh.
Haha, wish i can spend it with Didi.
Or Adam and Sara or LJ.
Then at night, spend it with family.
Hah, gots to work on that day tho. GEE.
I still love Ward 74.
miz kicked the coke machine
4:34 AM
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
DUMB.
DUMB.
Plainly,
DUMBBBBBBB!!!!!!!!!!!
Gosh, this is what happens when you're trying to "ignore" someone.
Like uhm, you like this person,
But you dont wanna message that person cos you err.
Know what? FORGET ITTT.
COS IM TOO REMORSE TO EVEN TALK ABT E PROBLEM.
COS IM DUMBBBBB.
SHIT IM DUMB.
WHY THE EFF DIDNT I JUST MESSAGE HIM?!?
now he's gone. GAH.
i dont get to TALK to him for e next 24+10+A GAZILLION HOURS!
DAMMNN. i cant wait that longgg.
im missing himm.
GAHHH. i guess thats how its gonna beee.
I MUST be strong and DEAL with ittt.
YES I CAN DO IT.
Being a nurse in ward 74,
IS THE BEST THING THATS EVER HAPPEN TO ME. (x
miz kicked the coke machine
4:51 AM
Saturday, October 22, 2005
1stly,
Happy Birthday Sam! x)
Wooh. Hoped you LOVE the things we got yah.
Hah, especially the PINK goodie bag.
YOUR favourite colourrr. ((:
Anyhoos, celebrated hun's b'dae with 5/6 of LJ.
Plus 3 other goondoos.
Hah, nah, i shall reveal them, CALVIN,NICK and ERIC.
Oh oh, plus SHIRRRR! rawrrr.
Haha, yeap met the rest at around 6.30-smth?
Did the packing of food for the victims of the Pakistan thing.
Its really sad hearing about their condition there.
Like, this doctor, he had to amputate 200 hands and legs,
EVERYDAYY!
Man, this really made me appreciate my hands and legs now.
I shall now make use of them in a good way.
Oh, and the kids there are sooo cold and sick.
Like Mindi said, the temp. there is like 5 degrees?
ANDDD, the clothes their wearing are like so thin and all.
I cant imagine how IM gonna survive there.
In denmark, when the temp was only like 14-16 degrees,
i was already shivering. Seriously.
And even then, i had 2 layers of clothes on.
This really made me think about things over there.
Anyhoos, we packed boxes of food.
And you know what? THEY ONLY GET 1 BOTTLE OF WATER!!
For a whole familyyy. Gosh.
I feel bad now for slacking yesterday.
Wait a min, i didnt really slacked, i mean,
LL! WE DID WORK!! hah.
Shall start doing more charity workkk.
Anyhoos, we ended the whole thing at like 1-plus, 2?
Decided to head to LL's house to watch movie.
Watched The 40 year-old virgin.
Not bad, not bad, just slow moving.
After watching, headed to sengkang to get hun's Polaroid.
Andd, we then go to townnn.
Blurdy NAT whizzed off home cos of xbox or smth.
LOSER. left me with the 2 biatchesss. LINA and LL.
haha. BUT, it was fun.
Lina's zip kept unzipping itself. shhh.
Carried the cake that lina made all around town.
FUN FUN FUNN!!
hah, decided to eat at Han's.
I ate FISH N CHIPPPS. hah. Yummm.
Sam and I decided to eat a slice of lemon,
plus chewing its skin in our mouth.
I did it for awhile, but decided to let the b'dae girl win,
so you know.
BOO YOU SAMMM.
We'll have a real battle NEXT TIME!
After thattt, gave hun her cake and presents.
and then her face changed when she saw IT!
Yes, the polaroid.
I just know she was soooo happppyyy! Haha.
Took her 1st EVER polaroid pic with nick.
BOO YOU NICKK. lucky shieet. he stole MY girl, MYYY girll!
Ate the broken cake cum brownie. Hah.
Its nice btw, Lina, really nicee. I mean it. ((:
Anyhoos, decided to take prints.
Been a long LONGG time since iv taken thosee.
Took 2 machines or smth, and decided to hog into one of them,
and take pictures using our OWN camerass. Hah.
Did loads of STUPID poses.
Well, i thought so. It turned out little in my memory thingabob.
After cam-whoring, headed back to our rooms.
But damnnn, we lost the keysss!
So we like, wondered around the hotel for like, er,
A long time?
Called our momms but they told us to go for MORE shoppingg!
Such caring moms we have.
Soo, we decided to stay at the local's house.
Hah, right gf's? We should punish ourselves.
For losing the room keyy. ((:
Oh well, had a BLASTTT with my gfs yesterday.
And with hun too. She was glowing with happiness.
Haha. Shall put the pictures in the next entry.
Too lazy right now.
Once again,
Happy Birthday Hunneh. x)
miz kicked the coke machine
10:17 PM
Monday, October 17, 2005
For all the things you said
You promised me the truth
But what i get is just a misled
Why cant you fucking say it?
Are you afraid?
Or is it all just an excuse.
To get me by.
So you can live your own life.
And forget all OUR times.
Of happiness and cries.
Well do you remember those times?
When you would cut a lime?
Just for me to dine?
And do you remember back then when we met?
You told me everything would be fine,
But when everything turned out like a shrine,
You blame me for all those crimes.
But the truth is i tried and tried,
To always make it right,
But you wouldnt fight.
Not tonight,
So guess what?
Here's your time to CRY.
miz kicked the coke machine
2:07 AM
Saturday, October 15, 2005
Have not been updating due tooo...
STUDYING.
Yesss endless nights of STUDYINGGG!
Hah, stay up EVERY night to friggin study.
Yes, cos its all LAST MINUTE.
hah. And every night is a special night.
EW. Sounds so cliche. hah.
JEANIE!! MORE PRANK CALLSSS! hah. =S
Anyhoos, am gonna put in PICTURES this time.
YES YES, i know, i was lacking of em from e last post.
SO IM BACK FOR MOREEE.
most of em are from My studying days with LL at e library.
ENJOY!
miz kicked the coke machine
6:56 AM
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Ilu Spongebob. x)
miz kicked the coke machine
7:25 PM
Thursday, October 06, 2005
I FRIGGIN CUT-TED MY HAIRRRR.
THANKS JEANIE FOR ACCOMPANYING MEE.
and freaking took my pictures while e lady was cutting
THE HORRENDOUS SHIT. (sp?)
Anyway, THE BLURDY LAPTOP WONT RECEIVE MY PICTURESS!
gahhh.
I broke the rule of listening to music.
BUT IT WAS ONLY TO RECORD THINGSSS!
BAD BAD BADDD.
oh well, im screwed anyway.
miz kicked the coke machine
1:22 AM
Sunday, October 02, 2005
LL and IIIIII. ((:
Min Da would soo kill me for thissss. HAH.
Brush brush brushhhh.
This is the cute guy from VF.
And im Mirro-st/ruck
My fav. snack in the WORLDDD.
Weeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I think LL is right.
According to her latest entry.
Adding pictures DOES make an entry more interesting.
Hah.
miz kicked the coke machine
10:58 PM
Saturday, October 01, 2005
Mom made me a time-table to studyy.
And im soo proud of itt. I MADE MY OWN TIME-TABLEE!
I mean, study-which-topic-table.
Whateverrr.
Chatting with HIM now.
He doesnt seem to care about me, thats sad.
Cos he doesnt realise how much IIIII like him.
His not over Dawn and how i wish he would be soon.
Im going craazy trying to resist my temptation to tell him.
LL said i should. =S
But what if i did tell him?!
Wouldnt he freak outtt?!
Maybe he'll go like, "EW. I'll never ever believe that."
Or worse, "Oh. Okay then."
Omg i wouldnt know how to react to that then.
LL is giving me counselling on that.
Gosh, its 11, i have an exam in an hour's time.
Read thru the topics, not remembering anything right noww.
AHHH. Why is my life evolving around,
EXAMS EXAMS and MORE EXAMSSS?!
I think my life's worst than a GEEK.
Now, im not just a nerd,
IMMA GEEK-NERD-THAT'S-FORCED-TO-LOVE-STUDYING!
YAY! GO MEE! n
not.
miz kicked the coke machine
7:52 PM
