Saturday, April 30, 2005

What makes someone really happy?
You know, those kind of happiness that you even start doing things right.
Is it when you are being loved?
Knowing that someone is there for you?
Security? Is that it?
You know, sometimes i feel that those things aren't important.
Like, really. Sometimes, im even disgusted by it.
But other times, i wish i felt that way.
I wish i feel that someone would be there for me.
But come to think of it,
Dont you have to learn to be independent?
Stand on yer 2 lil feet?
So why does it feel as if i need someone to turn to?
When i have a mind of my own?
People think love is sweet and kind and wonderful,
And all the good things in life.
But is it really good?
Does it really make you feel like you'll never have another problem ever?
Does it feel as if you own the world?
Or nothing will matter except u and yer love one?
There are so many things in life that people dont know.
But why wont they want to find out?
Do they just want to continue their life without knowing that,
Perhaps, there are even more things in life that are far more important.
Something else that would make em happy instead?
Why wouldnt they care?

Blurdy hell. Was a long day today.
Went tah school at 7.45 for a essay-writing course.
Was pretty okay. Learnt a few things here and there.
Was late by, what? A few seconds?
And it cost me an essay on the workshop. UGH.
So anyway, it ended at 12.45pm.
Went to Bishan to meet da committee for a meeting.
Ate peach waffle at cafe cartel and continued the meeting up till 6.
Went to a nearby "pasar malam" or night market,
To look for pajamas for a party during the June holiday camp.
Much more interesting activities this time.
Things like midnight movie, haunted thrill, amazing race and all.
Theme this yr is Girls night out, i think. Abit cliche, i think.
Whatever. Am watching Species II. Eerie.
Whats wit the aliens and all. Creepy.
Oh well, am talking to bro's gf.
Ciao.

miz kicked the coke machine
8:06 AM

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Here's to SAM!!
im updating BEE-atch. Hah.
**Laughs like an possessed person**
Wooo, Scarrryyyy.
Did that like loads of time yesterday.
Anyway, today was real fun.
No, actually TUESDAY was fun.
Stayed back wit a coupla of 3i's tah dance.
Using a oldie+retro typa song.
Its Elvis's Blue seude shoes or smth like dat.
Going on real well.
The idea is to have a hella of fun,
And be real craazy and retro and really mad.
Had another practice today at Lin's house.
Was better today tho,
But skipped Girl Guides. BAD.
Anyhoo, blurdy Mrs Raj had to scold me during EL AGAIN.
But Calvin "snapped" off a mealworm's head!!
Yuck.Ew.Yuck.Ew.Yuck.Ew.
But now i know a worm's blood is black,
And its blurdy watery. Seriously.
Cant wait for the next practice tho.
Me and li lin aced the sliding part.
**BOO YAH**
oh, oh, we cant be in da idol thingy tho.
Cos its spose' to be a vocal thingy.
But we're doing a dance,so,
Ms Zavier put us as an opening act,
Which is actually fine by me,
Cos obviously they cant have a whole group of
Retro assholes to be the Peicai Idol right? hah. duh.
Common tests are around da corner, GOD!!
28 more days till June Holidays.
Courtesy of Jeanie's handy-dandy calender+handbook.
Hah. Oh well, gotta rush my malay compo.
Ciao suckers.

miz kicked the coke machine
5:06 AM

Saturday, April 23, 2005

Its SATURDAY!!!!!!!
Tests are over, baaaabbyyy!
Wooot. But i have 2 weeks left.
To catch up in class,
Just in time for Common Tests, and after that,
Its the holidays!!!!!!!!
Weeeeeeeeeee. Enjoying e moment here.
Am listening to California by Phantom Planet.
Its blurdy addictive!
Anyway, still have not bathed altho its 4.15pm
I have nowhere to go anyway, so what e heck.
I still need to design a tee-shirt,
For some camp thing for sec 3s.
Cant wait for that.
I still need to plan another camp for guides.
But thank god one day is gone.
Cos Pierce scouts are helping us.
Woooohooooo. Not much work!!!
(They were very, very prepared for e meeting)
Anyhooos, speaking of camp.
The camp in Denmark seems so far away.
They have yet to send ANY letters to us,
To brief us on e camp, which i cant wait to go.
Well, probably cos e camp's in the end of July.
Duh. Im so dumb!
Trying to raise funds by baking cookies.
Daddy's helping me sell them. Thank god!
I just need to raise at least a thousand.
Oh well, im gonna hang out wit my parents.
Weeee. Its gonna be sooo "fun".
Unless they have $$ involved.
Ciao!

miz kicked the coke machine
1:09 AM

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Came back early today.
Like, REALLY early. Hah.
Went home wit Sam, who blurdy gimme a punch.
A HARD punch. 3 blurdy times,
And now i have a friggin blue black.
So different and "unique".
Friggin hell, SAM!! you're sooo gonna get it tmrw.
Crap ALOT wit sam today. Haha.
There was this emergency what shit exercise.
Hah. We were all spose' to go in a hurry whatsoever.
And sam, milli, lynn, bises and i purposely walked so so slow.
Only that bises and lynn had to be all so goody,
And so they "pang-sey-ed" us. Boo.
It made us skip our CME class
And half of Mother-Tongue. hah.
That was when the fun began.
Decided to walk real slow so we could skip classes.
More of like skip Geography test.
Purposely walked a long way,
But SOME nerds had to spoil e fun.
But me, milli, sam and li lin wanted so so much to skip classes.
So we walked an even longer way,
And then we thought of reasons to skip classes.
Like, PUSHING ME DOWN! hah.
We spent a blurdy long time in da toilet and
spent a long time just trying to find reasons to tell da tcher.
But ended up not getting to answer!!
Boo. Haha. Today was quite a day.
Tried so so hard to skip classes.
Oh well, Have 2 more tests.
Both on Friday. Blurdy Physics and Malay.
Dreadful.
Am gonna watch Hope&Faith.
Friggin hilarious.
Ciao babe-os.

miz kicked the coke machine
3:53 AM

Sunday, April 17, 2005

A post before i sleep.
Yeap, im sleeping early today.
Have my 2.4km run tmrw.
Am watching the apprentice now.
Quite bitchy and all.
Anyways, mom scolded me and sissy just now.
Practically shouted at our ears.
She gave me a good smacking,
Just cos i was sitting the nearest to her,
And she was holding a hanger.
It kinda hurt, but what the heck, i deserve it.
Skipped classes today. That caused it all.
Okay, maybe it is my fault,
But mommy didnt have to beat me!
Anyway, all the time she was scolding us,
I tried to take in all her words, but i couldnt.
Its like as if its too loud for me.
Like her words didnt make any sense at all.
After mommy scolded us, obviously i felt hurt,
Cos she beat me up and so, i cried.
Yeap, me cry. In the toilet.
And then i prayed to Almighty God, Allah, to forgive me.
And since mommy said we were e most laziest kids she ever heard of,
I did the laundry, which includes,
Drying, Washing and Folding,
And cleaned up e place a lil.
(Im serious, when i get a house of my own,
I am SOOOOO gonna clean it everyday)
And then i proceed to my malay hw.
Which is still incomplete.
Im still left wit Summary and Maths TYS!!
Oh well, have SS test on Tuesday too.
And Geog, and Physics. Gosh.
Oh well, i better get my sleep.
Long day tommorrow.
Ciao suckers.

miz kicked the coke machine
7:00 AM

Saturday, April 16, 2005

Okay, its 3 o'clock on a Sunday afternoon,
and i have not bathed.
Its normal isnt it?
Anyway, am not gonna put up my tagboard for awhile.
Doing a lil experiment.
Anyways, skipped my religious class today.
Reason? er, i have a blurdy test tmrw?
Its malay test actually. And its spelling.
Like wtf? I dont have to study. Hah.
Anyway, just downloaded ARES lite.
But blurdy hell, its not working.
How come my brother's account can use it?
Fuck him. He always gets everything in his way.
Like our disney channel? He locks it! Fucking hell.
Its like he owns it or smth.
And he made sure our account cant dwl any music,
So he can uses his on advantage.
His so so so so fucking selfish.
Anyway, if anyone, ANYONE,
Knows a way to dwl music, FREE music,
Do e mail me yeah? Im blurdy desperate.
Do it ere' : ira_slayer@hotmail.com
In e meantime, im gonna try to hack my bro's acct.
Ciao suckers.

miz kicked the coke machine
11:58 PM

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Olritey.
Changed my skin, yet again.
Really, i have nothing better to do.
For e 1st time, I waved at him!
Woohooo! I so totally rock.
Anyhoos, im such an asshole.
I ate 1 friggin chocolate today.
Im suppose to be banned frm eating those.
Im so not doing well right now.
Well 1stly, iv been getting into loads of trouble.
My grades are falling,
(no not really, cos iv not been taking any tests yet.)
Im not friggin losing weight.
I keep wasting time.
And my house is in a mess!
BOO. This sucks.
Anyhoos, school was okay today.
Was Gracie's b'dae today.
Happy B'dae yeah?
Oh oh, she's now my ass. Quarter Mistress!
Ha-di-ha. I shall bully her.
Stayed back today too. Did a lil of homework.
I friggin finished my malay hw. A miracle.
Saw Amirah at e interchange today.
Chatted for a lil while.
We can really catch things up, if only we had e time.
Okay, im left wit 54 more SCHOOL days,
before my Denmark trip.
I hope with all this counting,
I would still be able to go in e end.
Sometimes i feel that whatever i keep wishing for.
And i mean wish for, hard,
It doesnt happen.
It always leave me in depression.
Anyways, this week and next week is gonna be a real work.
Tests are filling in my weeks and all.
Which means that i have to start studying,
And listening in class.
Now, THAT's hard work.
Am watchin' Ms Congeniality 2 now.
Blurdy hilarious.
But i so prefer the 1st one.
Gonna do my workouts now.
Ciao.

miz kicked the coke machine
6:11 AM

Friday, April 08, 2005

Okay, i skipped school yesterday.
AGAIN. weeeee.
2 days in 1 month. I'll have a gd attendance record.
Hah. Did nothing at home actually.
Except mommy making me fold clothes and iron.
But im earning money for that so its okay.
Watched movie after movie after movie.
Then met Lynn at 4.30 at interchange.
Went to Kovan to get a cap.
Wasnt really nice but time wasnt promising,
So i had to get it yesterday.
It was only 9.90!!! The cheapest i could find. lol.
Anyhoos. am watching video clips.
Ciao.

miz kicked the coke machine
7:20 PM

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Seriously tot everything would be okay,
But boy, dont i always find ways to screw it up!
Why cant i just be brave enuff to say hi to him?
UGH. I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!
You know what? SCREW IT!
screw all this. screw HIM!
Im going Denmark!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wooohoooo. Tho they brought back e date.
Instead of 23rd of july, its 29th instead.
BOO! That means we have to wait LONGER!!
That sucks. Hmmm. But hey, i get to skip school!
Oh well. tried to understand maths lesson just now.
i am so gonna flunk my common test this month.
Altho, im glad God helped me concentrate during Chem.
Am glad. for e 1st time, i listened to Mdm Tan.
And not just listen, but understand her words!!
Woooohooo!! I ROCK! lmao.
Anyhoos, i g2g. Ciao.

miz kicked the coke machine
5:16 AM

Saturday, April 02, 2005

i am so so STUPID.
I had it all along!
I mean, it was almost there.
We were fine. And then came april's fool.
Ugh. I shoulda known.
Now he'll think im such an idiot.
DAMMIT!!!!!!

Okay, im not gonna start freaking out.
Im gonna go get a new skin,
Cos this one's fucked up.
Da words aren't right and all.
So yeah, Till later.

miz kicked the coke machine
12:04 AM