Wednesday, July 28, 2004

Nothing much happened today..
Had History test..
Was a bummer..
Hope i can pass my other tests!!
Aneways, Jas came 2 ma hse today..
We sorta did our hw and stuff.
Den Jas checked her mail and we watched MOVIESSSSSS.
Well not exactly more than 1 movie..
We delayed ALOT of time so we only gotta watch 1 movie.
Dis Sat, im gonna go fer a canoeing courseeee.Weeeeeeee.
Cant waittttt.. Gotta buy guide's light blue shirt.
This week daddy's not working..
So guess tmrw gonna buy da shirt.
Spose' to go for a debate dis friday but dont tink i wanna turn up..
Not interested..
These days, i feel dat my mood change easily..
I get angry often..
Im quiet these days too.
Not like e old me.
And im always feeling really sick..
Oh yeah, finished art just now..
Throat is like soaring nowww. Haha.
Gonna iron uniform now,so gotta fuck off dooodesss.

miz kicked the coke machine
7:36 AM

Saturday, July 24, 2004

Maybe we're not meant to be together..
Iv watched him with his girlfriends..
Changing each time..
His not worth it.
I keep telling myself.
Why isnt it working..
Its time to move on..
Why do i like a person who has been "used"?
Why do i keep liking him?
Whats that special thing in him that attracted me?
His playfullness?
His cute lil smile?
His voice?
What is it, i dont know.
He has a girlfriend now, i dont tink i care.
Time to find someone new.
Iv not gone thru tis' before.
So why is this happening?
Why must there be feelings of love?
Forget him.
Think about him.
Tell him.
I think i'll do just that.

miz kicked the coke machine
11:21 PM

Thursday, July 22, 2004

Havent been updating these past few days..
Busy wit tests and stuff..
Ma NAPFA is coming up preetttyy sooonn.
I sooo gotta train hard..
Aneways, next week im like gonna be so goddamn busy.
Busy wit tests and all dat.
I have 3 test lining up next week.
One after another..
Im soo shitified.[Sam's word! =)
And i have not started studying 2 of the subjects.
On monday, Science test. Iv started on that.
Tuesday, DNT test. *KabOom*
Wednesday, History.
Like dammit. How am i gonna cope.
But hey, i gotta get thru wit it.
Today, went tah COmpass Point wit Jas to study.
Studied at Captain Cook until we bcame damn full.
Did science worksheet and notes and some highlightings..
Had Geography test today too..
I hope i can pass this time. Not to be over-confident.
Aneways, im gonna start saving up soon.
So i culd buy like lotsa stuff in da future.
Gonna save 10$ every week..
Starting frm next week of course.
I already use up ALL ma money dis week.
Dat means, i can only watch 1 movie next week!!
Hmm. A list on what to get when i save enuff, i hope:
1)A new skirt from dat shop at Toa Payoh.
2)Army pants.
3)Apollo bag.
4)Air force shoes.
5)Lots of sport bras.
6)New stationaries and pencil box and stuff.
7)Accessories; dangling ear-rings and stuff like dat.
8)A new top from dat shop at Toa Payoh.
9)A wallet.
10)Those pink pencil case and stuff at J8.

Theres more actually..
Only dat i cant make up many right now..
Oh well, i have to run.

miz kicked the coke machine
6:14 AM

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

I like him.
He has some1 else.
Guess dis is the end.
I know i shouldnt give up.
But u cant force love.
No, im not looking for someone.
I just want to love and be loved.
I thought this could be my chance.
We were so close.
Maybe i shouldnt expect too much.
I dont even know whether i should wait.
Its easy to say.
But its really difficult to wait for someone.
Especially when that someone has some1 else.
This uncertainty feeling, it keeps bugging me.
Is this love or is my heart just fiddling?
Everyday i look at him, nothing happens.
When something comes out of my mouth to him, its doesnt matter anymore.
Cos i cant hope too much.
So i guess this is it. I'll just 4get about him.
Or shall i continue?

miz kicked the coke machine
5:25 PM

Saturday, July 17, 2004

Yey, at last. The fonts allrite.
So yea, on  Sat, me,Lynn, Sean,Nick and Shaun went tah Orchard..
Marcus joined us at 7 eleven FaR East.
We were like spose to buy his present but Nick agreed to meet himm!
Aneways, we sorta "lied" to Marcus b4 agreed 2 him to come.
Hhaha, we said dat Lynn hurt her elbow badly.
And we were gonna send her to da clinic.
But damn Nick go n invite Marcus.
But in e end we didnt buy his present in frnt of him so its okay.
When we were at Far East, we were like walking aimlessly.
So dumbbbb. hahaha. Lynn kept complaining about her crush and all datt.
Hah. So yea, we got tired of Far East so then we walked tah Taka.
Marcus's "house".. hah. like watever.
We kept wasting time on deciding where to eat and all dat.
We actually wanted 2 eat at LJS but Marcus dragged us to Taka and shit him.
We finally ate at Mac. I ate BIG MACCC. hee.
Nick and Marcus left 1st. And therefore, me lynn and da sean/shaun[s] searched for marcus's prezzie.
We walked tah Cineleisure and bought Marcus a sorta desk clock.
Thought of watching King Arthur but lynn didnt wanna.
So after we bought Marcus's prezzie, we started walking aimlessly again.
But the Sean/Shaun[s] "invited" me and lynn to watch da "gig" opposite da skate park.
Like omigod. It was awesome!!!
There was this rap competition.
And there was like soooo many malay peeps dress like hip hop wannabes.
But watever. The rap competition was okay.
After staying there for like quite long, we went home. But we saw this group of peeps.
They were playing tunes and there were 2 women dancing. like pole dancing.
Sean was like, "Chio bu chio bu".
Den wen i stared at him, he said, "What? Aint it true?"
Haha. Yea yea. Went to da Sommerset mrt station.
Missed da 1st train cos LYNN pulled me and Sean out cos SHAUN walked away.
So we waited while bitchin' ard.
Sean called ahem and lynn was like freakin' out.
Oh yea, wen we were on e way to Far east in da NEL line, we did da dumbest thang ever.
Sean lead us e way from one end of da train to the other end.
Hahahaha. Every1 was staring at us.
Wen we were going home, we thought of dat too, but again, LYNN said no.
Halfway thru actually.  She said, "We had da best position jst now"
Cos it was like friggin crowded. But we were at e end so it was da "best" place i guess.
Me and Sean were separated from Lynn and  Shaun to take different buses.
Sean was such an idiot in da bus.
He kept whispering to me many racist jokes.
hahahaha. It was dumbb. Bleah.
Today my uncle's got an open house on his new house..
So gotta run. 

miz kicked the coke machine
11:26 PM

Me and lynn went tah watch Spiderman 2!!!
Like at lasttt..
Iv been waiting fer the momenttt.
Obviously it was wonderful..
But i tink its a bit too much action.
I dont know. Hmmm.
ANeways, tomorrow i have to go back to school.
Wat a nightmare.
Especially the purpose.
Tomorrow i'll also be going out tah find fer Marcus's b'dae prezzie.
Wit Lynn, Nick, Sean(i tink), mebbe Rosan and i dnt know who else.
Today was e greatest day and not.
1st thing is dat i watched SP2.
Me and lynn bitch around da optical shop a lott.
Went tah look around fer sandals to match her kebaya.
I still have not chosen wat tah wear..
I kept choosing fer ppl dat i dint choose 4 maself.
Wat the heck. I have many clothes.
Just a matter of choosing.
Oh well, tmrw there's also campfire at ZHSS..
But most probably i wont go.
dont tink mama and dada gonna allow.
Even if they did, im not gonna bother.
Campfires arent fun, they're like a total waste of time..
You sit around some fire and sing songs.
Like shitass. I dont do datt.
I dont even now why im in dis thang..
Just gonna get over tomorrow.
Oh well, im rushing off. Gonna go wait for Bachelor 4.
The girls are gonna bitch bout' stuff. Gotta watch. 
  
 

miz kicked the coke machine
11:25 PM

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

Today i walked home wit Sam, Lynn, SHir and E.t.
They all wanted to come ma house for a "costume partayy"
Hahahaha. Aneways, Lynn and me was like practicing
on how she's gonna tell her crush abt her feelings.
Bleah. Good luck lynn!
So yeah, me shir and sam was like bitchin' around in da bus.
Gawd, we were like, "Shut up u Ninny"
"No, you shutup u fugly whore!"
"Oh no, u dont call me that u tootsie"
And then, a new word came. By me!
ZOONIEE. Thats nice isnt it?
Sam and Shir laughed like shit wen they heard da new word!!!
Aneways, back at my hse, they all were like.
"Which one shall i weaR?"
Shir was the last 1 to decide tho.
Hah. At last she picked da pink one, as usual.
Guess dis week cant watch spiderman2.
Gotta find things for da racial harmony day thang.
I wonder whether we could wear bangles and dangling earrings.
Sam and me almost decided on wearing head band wit ears on top!
Hahahhaha. like e one in Christmas partays.
Oh yes we will sam. We will! hahahah.
Tomorrow more people are gonna try out da costumes.
Packed room tomorrow.
Furthermore, at 3, me shir and nick gonna do our PW.
Bises is sooo gonna owe us one treat.
Hee. SO yeah, gonna go get more costumes frm da mosque.
Zooniee is off!

miz kicked the coke machine
4:24 AM

Monday, July 12, 2004

Its 6 oclock in the morning..
My mind fill wit a thousand thoughts of u..
And how u left without warning..
Hah. Ronan keating and Leann Rime's sweet love song..
Its actually spose to be 4oclock.
Yeap.So im sitting at the "IT CORNER"..
Waiting for my mom 2 finish praying..
Oh well.
I dont feel lyke going tah schoool.
SAM!!! YOU GOT SUSPENDED!
Headlines in da paper: A Minoshe bra shop was burnt down by a 14 yr old girl.
ROFLMAO!!
Cant imagine.
Your sooo lucky! 2 weeks att home.
Oh well, u wont take da class photo then. ;)
Guess mom's done.
Gonna fuck off now.

miz kicked the coke machine
3:10 PM

Sunday, July 11, 2004

I just read a chapter from dis book,
Unlimited Power by Anthony Robbins
The most encouraging book iv ever read.
The BEST in fact.
Im not gonna bother anymore.
I'll just help whoever asks for them.
I dont wanna say anything to some1 who doesnt care.
Cos they just wont understand.
Cos they dont wanna change.
In that book, it says..
"You can only change some1 if he/she wants to change"
Aneways, like iv said, i dont wanna bother.
So yeah, my cousins and aunt and uncle is at ma house.
Celebrating my cousin's b'dae.
His gonna turn 2 today.
His the most cutest toddler iv ever seen.
Just love him.
I wanna find something in life that will change me.
Iv read from that book and i feel that part of me wants 2 change.
Change for the better of course.
I know from now on i'll..
::Fully concentrate in class
::Do my homework straight after school
::Not gonna interfere in people's life
::Just gonna concentrate in my own life, education and family
::Not gonna forget my friends
::Help those who needs anything i guess..
::Be nice to everyone, including Shaun =X
::Help myself
::Start studying for my end-of-year
::Try listening to Miss Kuan
::Think positive and always be cheerful
::Pray for my grandfather
::Not be emotional

Guess thats all.
Im not sure actually..
Gonna ask my sistur to help me wit my taggy or watever she said.
Im gonna go off now.

miz kicked the coke machine
1:38 AM

Friday, July 09, 2004

Changed da song..
I too love this song..
Its sad.
Nah, i just finished watching A Walk To Remember..
So i remembered bout' tis song.
So yeah, changed it.
I <3 Switchfoot!
Hee. Gonna fuck off now.

miz kicked the coke machine
2:09 AM

Ugh. I hate those things..
Before i can view my blog, there will be these microsoft thang..
But yeah, iv place in music..
To irritate my sissy actually hah.
She doesnt like it if some1's blog has music..
So, here u go gurlie.
Enjoy!

I chose maroon 5 she will be lovedd..
I just love dis song!!
The tune is sooo soothing..
Plus Adam Lavine's voice..
It just suites the song.
Hmmm.. Aneways, i just realised something.
Well, not just realised, actually,
iv thought bout' tis' a coupla times..
And i wonder, why is there love?
I look at my friends crying and getting all upset..
Just cos they have lose their loved ones..
I mean, why bother?
THEY broke YOUR heart..
Get on wit ur life.
There's soo many other people you dont noe dat would appreciate u.
Its just tat these people dont think about these stuff.
I do.
Dats why i wonder why should people get upset over this?
Just leave em.
They dont want u no more..
Just 4get em..
Why should u care about other people wen they dnt care bout u?
Gawdd.. grow up olreadi..
Oh well, maybe i shouldnt just judge ppl like dat..
Mebbe cos iv not gone thru all tis..
Mebbe i dont wanna..
Cos im scared..
I dont wanna get hurt..
I dont wanna get e wrong person..
Oh well, Time to wait..
Or mebbe just to forget.

miz kicked the coke machine
1:17 AM

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

So yey. Got a new layout..
Shir, happy now? LOL
Yea, it was about time i shuld get a new one neways.
So yea Shir, thanks fer reminding yeah?
Just finished editing the last bits.
Thanks Sissy fer helping.
Gonna watch Spiderman 2 tomorrow, i guess.
I feel like watching Mean Girls tho.
Oh well, gotta go tah bed.
Toodles kitty.

miz kicked the coke machine
8:02 AM

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

So yeah, im in the mosque at momma's table, just babbling away here. Bleah.
Just ended tuition, where we had a new kid in class.
Dont know her though.
Aneways, didnt have science today cos Mdm Eng had to go fer a basketball match.
So we had a free periodddd!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
Went tah get Lynn's bag. Oh gawddd, she took such a long time to choose her bag.
She kept saying like..
"Does this bag suite me annot?"
"Are you sureee?"..
I bet the seller was thinking..
"Oh godd, this is worst day of my life.." or
"Would they just grab a friggin bag and just pay me so i would get paid fer selling these stuff they've been confusing about."
The seller said dat she had much worse buyers than us. Thank you.
So we we'rent that bad afterall huh.
So i guess momma gotta use da comp fer urgent stuff, so toodles.

miz kicked the coke machine
6:51 AM

Thursday, July 01, 2004

What do you do when ur sitting in a bus wit a fat laydee? And ur sitting inside and she's outside? And, wat if, she pinches you wen the bus is turning a corneR? What would you do? If you just let go, you would hurt her feelings and i dont tink u ever wanna hurt a fat laydee's feelings cos you would never noe wat she might do.. So.. Wat do you do? PINCH YOURSELF BACK Hee. Marie told me dat joke. Hah.

Me and lynn did our presentation today and i got a bloody 21. Argh watever. Lynn cancelled e plan of finding sling backs today cos she had training. I guess their training was a disastrous. Hmm. I pity em. If i were em tho, i would be glad to have another day of training, Hey, at least ur working out yea? Which is great. Dat means ur fit! o.O?

So yea, tomorrow, i have to go on a "fieldtrip" to Sungei Buloh wit 7 other people fer a research or something like dat. I mean, wat can YOU research there? Aneways, today walked home wit ET, Sam and Nick, but ET left us! How dare youuu. Hah. Her house was a distant away gee. So yea, me and sam and nick walked to da bus stop. I felt guilty walking home wit them actually. I feel like a busybody, i mean, they're spose' to walk home together alone but suddenly I budge in! *Hits farkin' head* Sorry Sam! Sorry Nick! Joked alot on e way tho. Talked about the booking of the "music room" near nick's house. Where they have electric guitars, drums, keyboard and a Rusty microphone. HOW COOL IS DATTTT?!?!?! i mean, i've always wanted to play electric guitar, unlike "jamming" on my pathetic classic guitar.

I just hope Nick would hurry and book da thang. I dont mind if Nick is gonna sit at one corner just daydreaming or Sam laughing or ME just getting all excited. I JUST WANNA PLAY THOSE INSTRUMENTS!!! Wat other chances do I have aneways? Well, today i kept looking at ma crush. Dont know why. Its not HIM anemore,its HE. Hah. Same but not. I just hope HE realises my feelings soon. OMG. I sound desperate. But i hope HE doesnt know abt my feelings actually, cos otherwise, i bet he would ignore me. Arghhh. Cant my life get any worse? Im off!

miz kicked the coke machine
4:56 AM