Wednesday, June 30, 2004

Another post. So darn bored. I dont know wats happening to me. Im not suppose 2 be sad. Wats sup wats suppp?!? Im suppose to always look at da brighter side and be cheerful all the time. I wonder why people have to be sad. I know those are feelings and you have to be sad for some reasons. You usually become sad cos of something bad happen that you cant change. So why cry over spilt milk? Isnt dat dumb? Its like, you're depressed about something u cant change.. Wat can YOU do. Like err, NOTHING?!? So why give a shit? Just move on and improve. Thats what you should tink about, rather than being sad.

Gee, why cant people just have a lil bit of common sense?!? Why must there be anger? Sadness? Depression? + all the negative feelings and thoughts. How you ever gonna succeed like tis'? Oh gawd, i tink iv just heard too much of motivational talk. But its working. I tink im improving. I feel im much brave, i dont ask stoopit Qs. I always try to encourage people but why wouldnt they listen? Why do they wanna listen to dumb things and think otherwise? Isnt that just stupidd?!?

So tomorrow probably Lynn and me and Jenifer gonna search fer sling bags. Then on Friday i have to go Sungei Buloh fer a research and someone pang sey mee!! Ugh. Iv been dieting for this past few days and i tink its progressing. Plus i jogg yesterday. Hah. i lost 1.something kg! So happy. in like less den a week. Gonna continue. Nowadays im only eating once a dayyy. Gonna fuck off now, off to do homework.

miz kicked the coke machine
2:12 AM

Monday, June 28, 2004

Weeeeeeeee. Been a long time aye. Aneways, not much been goin' on lately. Hmmm, lemme see, school started today, and it was okay i guess, just an ordinary day at an ordinary fucked up school. Iv seen common hairstyles in girls, and surprisingly BOYS too. Especially the softball boys. Gee, watsup wid da shaven headss? A trend? ANd the girls.. Small and "sharp" ponytails. Wattt? Aneways, i was changed seats in class. Now, im sitted at the corner and at the back of da class. So much of a new term. Im suppose to start to concentrate in class, but wat the heck?!?

Nick got glasses and it looked horrible. Hah. Sorry doode. Didnt meannit. The frame is just, too thick! Hee. My group is still not done wit our project work's model thang. And im also not done wit my oral presentation thang. Me and Lynn is gonna research tomorrow. Arghhh. Tomorrow i have a gg test. I hope its not at 3.30! Fuck em. Ugh.

miz kicked the coke machine
6:30 AM

Friday, June 25, 2004

So im back, watever. Im like soo fucking pissed off rite nowww. Ugh. It seems dat not 1 soul in my house that cares for the cleanliness here. Its just sooo ewww. I mean, how can they stand the mess? Its really messy, lemme warn you. Im serious!

So at Port Dickson, it was funn. I went to da Sauna and the Steaming place and "shed" the fats in ma body. Not sure how much, but some, i hope. So aneways, 1st day of my fun journey to Malaysia, was the one-day-visit to Melaka and checked into Equitorial Hotel. ItS not bad of a hotel actually. 5 friggin staR!! Gosh, in the afternoon of 20th June, my family and Uncle Sop, walked down a typical row of shops. Its not bad actually, but since we were heading somewhere else, we didnt really stop alot. We were actually heading straight to da shopping mall there but daddy wanna walk by there. On the way to the mall, we saw this really well-decorated becak [sp?] along the roadsides. Its sooo beautiful. i mean, its decorated wit colorful flowers and stuff. Pity sissy din't take a picture of it. After going to da mall, (not much happened in da mall, just dat i culdnt buy anething cos we were in a hurry. Wat the heck?) we went back to da hotel den at nite, we went to dis really nice restaurant called Alai, i tink. It wasnt exactly a restaurant, its like a hawker centre, only better. (If u get wut i mean) The food was sooooooo shioK!! Hee. Ate quite alot cos that afternoon, i didnt eat lunch so i was like fucking hungry. So the next day, after eating lunch at Uncle Sop's cousin's place, we went to Port DickSon. It was much better at Port dickSon.

At port dickson, i really had fun. We swam, ALOT. I went to da gym, sauna, the steaming place with SisSy, played volleyball and soccer, ate at wonderful places, walk by the beach, had fun wid daddy, sissy and younger sissy wen we swam. I laughed ALOT cos daddy and younger sissy made me laugh a lot. Hee. They kept doing the spiderman-hand-action thang, and the reactn thing. I just cant stand the thought of my dad doing the S-H-A thang. hahahaha. So yeap, it was a really fun trip. Gonna fuck off now, gee, i suddenly feel much betteR..

miz kicked the coke machine
4:47 AM

Friday, June 18, 2004

Yeahhhhhhooooooooooooooo!!! Mommy is gonna come home sooooNnNnNn!!! Miss her loads! =) Gawd. I cant imagine my life without momMy. Its only been like a coupla of days and i miss her like crAzZy. She called tis' morning too. Hope she comes home early today.

Today might be the last day, 5 days from now that im gonna post an entry. At lasttt!! Im gonna go fer a holiday. Been dreading fer tis' day to come. Gee. Its TOMORROW!! Hmm. Gonna go to Melacca fer a night, then to Port DickSon. UnCle Sop is gonna come along. [HAuS.hAuS] Hee.

So yea erm.. Tomorrow's Father's Day too! ANd mebbe, just mebbe, im gonna bake some cookies. Gawd. Life is difficult when i have no moneyyy. I nid it to buy the ingredients. If i cant buy the ingredients, then i cant bake the cookies then i cant impress my mommy and daddy! OH MY GODDD. i just remembereD!! I olreadi told daddy im gonna bake those cookies fer my "friend", in other words fer himm. Bleah. I tink we gonna celebrate tomorrow. Mommy gotta make something up.

Tis' morning i thought of going jogging but err, just remembered that SisSy and me gotta meet our cuzzy at CP at like 10.30 in the morn. So im actually in my outing clothes just waiting fer SIsSy to finish making breakfast, since she RUSHED me to get ready. Oh yeah, at last im done wid ma Malay information collection. o.O? And yeahhh, i totally 4got! SIssy won the KEANE cd fer AbSOluTelY nOtHiNg! [according to Grace hah] Weeeeee. I helped i helped. (RiCHaRd HouSse likes Blue) The cd is half mine!! (: Gonna fuck off now, The fries and nuggets is tempting!

miz kicked the coke machine
6:32 PM

Thursday, June 17, 2004

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
The tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened before

I just love tis' song! (:

miz kicked the coke machine
10:02 PM

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

So yeah, i just came back from an evening jog and im like friggin' tired. Gawd, i cant believe i played wid those lil kids in ma freaky house downstairs just now. Gee. But we played catching, my FAVOURITEEEE. =)

I went swimming in da morning just now and swam 10 laps non-stop. Except fer like, u noe, cleaning my goggles.Hee.

DadDy was really pissed off at me and siSsY cos we delayed and made him cancel his "plans" in da morning. We were suppose 2 wake up in da morn, like at 6.30am and get ready fer swimming. Onlie dat he forgotten dat we slept really late last nite cos me and siS just lay there like some idiots. Actually I felt like an idiot cos i just lay on da bed waiting fer an sms while my sister played MULTIPLY. And so, we woke up at like 7.00am and dAddy went like, "Next time wake up faster cann? All my plans gonna cancell!!" Something like datt. Ugh.Pissed off.

So aneways, i dont plan to do anything tonight. i meant homework or study. Cos at 2.30pm, me and siSsy went tah Compass Point's capTain's CoOk to study.Well, not exactly study. Sissy needed to do her darn tuition homework cos at 5 she had 2 go tuition aneways. Aneways, i finished ma graphs and other questions fer maths. Weeeeeee yey!!!!!!!! ALMOST done wid hols homework. [EdIT: i nearly forgotten ma hols hw list.]

English: Comprehension,Newspaper Cutting, Preparation for
Presentation
Malay: Ringkasan Buku, Research/Projek.
Science: Review Questions on the 4 topics.[Chap. 4,5,6]
Maths: Maths Sums on da Worksheet
Geography: Newspaper Cutting
D&t: Research on the pictures
History: Worksheet
Art: Prepatory and Final piece

Well,gotta eff off now. BORED like Shit.

miz kicked the coke machine
3:34 AM

Tuesday, June 15, 2004

Just came back from the dentists. Accompanied DaDdy to his LONG LONG check upp!!! Gawd. he said it would be like only half an hour, but turns out, it took the fucking dentist to delay the fucking time to 2 and a half houR. Gawd. I sat there, i was sitting like an innocent child, listening to da damn radio just staring and staring at the doctor "operating" my dad. I have to admit, I WILL NEVER, EVER wanna become or dream to be a dentists. I just cant stand to look at other people's DISGUSTING teetch. Its soooo ewwwwwwww. Well, i have not started on ma maths worksheet. Gee. Wonder wen i should start. No mood i guess. Gotta start revising next term's topics too. Must BUCK UP! yeS. i CAN DO ITTTT. Weeeeeeee. Later going out again, after sending Sissy to her tuition, me and DaDdy gonna go somewhere. Not quite sure. Hope i can make my spectacles soon. Oh yeah, i just knew there's such thing as ceramicinvinsible braces. Wow. I wish i could get thoseee. But the doctor said it would cost like 3-5k. The normal braces only costs like a few hundreds. Oh well, i wish i could ane of those. I wanna make ma teeth STRAIGHT. Heh. So yeah, the next few days of da week would be such an ultimate boredome. Cos, err, lemme see, i cant go out cos im like fucking brokeeeeeeee. gotta find a job soon. Iv set my eyes on those b-e-a-utiful sports bra at RoBinSons. =) Hee. SO yeah, imma leave now. Pheaceeeeee.

miz kicked the coke machine
1:46 AM

Sunday, June 13, 2004

I wanna i wanna i wanna i wanna i wanna watch watch watch watch Around the worLd in 80 dayssssssssssss!!!! Wen issit out? Is it on 16 or 17th? Bleah. I hope by den iv finished ALL ma homework. So yeah, time fer da Checklist:

English: Comprehension,Newspaper Cutting, Preparation for
Presentation
Malay: Ringkasan Buku, Research/Projek.
Science: Review Questions on the 4 topics.[Chap. 4,5,6]
Maths: Maths Sums on da Worksheet
Geography: Newspaper Cutting
D&t: Research on the pictures
History: Worksheet
Art: Prepatory and Final piece

Yeyyyyyyyyyyyy!! Im left wid Maths and da fucking ART! wat crap! So yeah, my aunt and her whole troupe of children are here!! lolx. The DARLINGS. sooo adorable. Hmmmz. Gotta fuck off now, ICE AGE'S onNNNNNNNN!!!!!!

miz kicked the coke machine
11:06 PM

Thursday, June 10, 2004

Just came back from Ikea wid mommy and youngeR sissy. Bought quite some stuff fer ma room. AT LAST! Listening to aVril's new album. Kinda used to the song already. Olritey, i tink im gonna finish my homework by this week at least. im at least done wid finding geography articles. So gonna continue wid my history, finish it and finish pasting the articles for geography. Hmm, den probably start on maths. Den tomorrow, start on English project and malay project. my neck fucking hurts!! Gotta clean the fucking toilet now, which is supposed to be my SISTER'S job!! Ugh. Go fuck off!

miz kicked the coke machine
11:28 PM

I swear to myself im not gonna go to the theatre till MEAN GIRLS is out! Oh gawdd. I cant believe i watched HaRry Potter And tHe priSoner of AzKaban againnn!! Wid ma sissy only. Hmmmz. Mom just cooked pizzaaa. YUMMMMMMMMMMMMM.gonna eat nowwww. The pizza's sooooo niceeeeeee. Bleah. Gotta fuck off now!

miz kicked the coke machine
7:27 PM

Wednesday, June 09, 2004

Phew! Done quite a number of ma holiday homework. Ugh. VERY pissed off rite now. Shall not mention why cos it'll make me MORE pissed off. Well, better do my checklist on ma holiday homework:

English: Comprehension,Newspaper Cutting, Preparation for
Presentation
Malay: Ringkasan Buku, Research/Projek.
Science: Review Questions on the 4 topics.[Chap. 4,5,6]
Maths: Maths Sums on da Worksheet
Geography: Newspaper Cutting
D&t: Research on the pictures
History: Almost done!
Art: Prepatory and Final piece

Wow. Still got a lottt more. Specially Maths. Tink i'll finish Geography and History tommorrow. IF i have the mood, mebbe i'll do my Maths. Gee. STILL pissed off. Gonna fucking fuck off now.

miz kicked the coke machine
4:03 AM

Tuesday, June 08, 2004

Today's lil "outing" wid NSJL was greattt. We had lotsa fun and laughter but a lil bit of sadness too. Anyways, met up wid em at about 2.40pm. I was late. Hee hee. SOrry gurls. Met them at Somerset den they went to find place to eat first. Stoopit Lynn ate at some food court or something.If im not wrong, the food there is erm.. not say DISGUSTING, but not nice either, according to Jenifer. Poor her. Bought the wrong type of food. Lynn looked really pretty and Jenifer and Sharon looked pretty too. Yeap. After they had eaten, we went tah Robinson at Centerpoint Orchard, i tink, and looked at B-R-A-S. Lynn kept introducing the bra she bought and so on so forth. Hee.

After that walked all the way to Heeren.Walked around. I bought Avril Lavigne's cd.I tink it costs like $17.95 yeah. Considered cheap enough. sO then, we walked around Heeren and looked at clothes and all dat. So then we got a lil bit bored and walked to Far East. On e way, bought curry puff frm OLD CHANG KEE. mmmmm yummm yummm. Wen we reached Far East,straight away we looked at skirts and tops den Jenifer and Sharon spotted Jolin Tsai. She looks ugly in real life. Well not ugly ugly, but ugly as in different from the posters or pictures iv seen.. After that, we walked again. Round and round level one cos Jenifer and Sharon trailed Jolin. I tink. Me and Lynn walked around and around and around and at last bought a friendship band. We chose Pink cos Lynn didnt noe wat colour to buy cos the nicest is just well Pink and Purple. The pink one's nice yeah but the purple one is nicer. Gee. Regrets. Hmmm. Den after that took neoprint, the one next to 77th street. a new place i tink. 1 time wasnt enough, as usual and so, we took another. The second time was a disaster. We only took once and the picture turns out all the same. But luckily we had time to decorate it nicely.

I'll try to put the picture in ere somehow. if only i can figure out a way to place it in ere. Went home after that. Sadly Lynn didnt get the chance to catch her 5.30 chinese show. And it was a really LONG LONG LONGGG journey back home. Talked a lot wid SHaron cos she took the same bus, like duhh. Talked a lot about guys and relationships. Gave her advice. Yes i did. I tink i should be an advicer when im old enuff. Is there such job? AdviceR? Hmm. Probably. So yeap! Thanks gurls. Had a really great time. Love u loads. :)

miz kicked the coke machine
4:29 AM

Monday, June 07, 2004

YEYYYYYYYYYYYY. I managed to complete at least part of ma hols homework. Da science and english book review. Hmmm. Oh yeah, started on History study guide. Today went to Bedok library wid momma and younger sissy. Borrowed 2 books regarding Scotland for english presentation. Got a copy of the tokoh melayu fer malay project. All i nid now is to type out the infos and make a good presentation. I had a long talk wid momma today. She really insipired me alot. She talked about looking at things in a islamic point of view. ANd now i realised that i only studied and read my textbooks for only 1 purpose: Examinations. My mom made me realise that we shouldnt study and read information or anything new for exams but for knowledge. And.. i tink im gonna start anew towards learning. Oh gosh, is this ME speaking. Hah. Yeap. Gonna acheive that triple science class and to that JC and get a scholarship. =) yES i will. I can do it. I believe i can. Phew. Done wid all those, i would be a specialist. Hee. Mom said to be a something-something specialist. Cant remember wat it is tho. hah. Mom said i have to go through of becoming a doctor 1st or something like dat. Yeap. Just believe in urself i guess. Yeah. Tomorrow going out wid mua fwenzeh. Shopping. Yey. Shop. Shop. Shop. Tonite going swimming wid lil sis and dadddyyyy. :) So yeah, gotta fuck off now.

miz kicked the coke machine
2:26 AM

Friday, June 04, 2004

HARRY POTTER 3 WAS FANTASTICCCCCCCCCCC!!!!!!! I loved it a lottttt. Some peeps said it was boring but they proofed me WRONGGGGGGG. here Are some phrases i culd remember. Hee.

"What the Bloody hell was that about?- Ron Weasely"
"Does my hair really look like that from the back?- Hermoine Granger"
"I'll kill him- Harry Potter"
"Well done Harry! Well done!- Hagrid"

Yeap. I remembered. It was soooooooo adventurous yeah. Went tah watch it wid Sissy, JaS, and MaRcus. Hee. U peeps shuld catch it. Well, the next movie would be either Ella Enchanted or MeAN Girls, whichever is released earlier. So yeah, gosh its been a long time since iv said tis', IMmA fuck off now.

miz kicked the coke machine
3:00 AM

Wednesday, June 02, 2004

Just finished watching FRIENDS. The last season. My bruder always downloads dem so yeah, sneaky meaky i watch em. These days i seem to ryhme things. Like "Liar liar pants on fire, go go untie the wire." Hah. At last i ryhmed those. Aneways, yesterday went for bbQ at eAst COaSt wid Momma, dadDy And SiSTeR-s. I wanna thank god for resisting my temptations of eating too much food,tho its barbequed. Mebbe cos there were many people at da chalet. YEap. We were the last 2 arrive and last to leave. I didnt talk to ma old fwenzeh cos i dnnoe, they seem bitchy. Suddenly not talking to em. But wat the fuck? Like i even care.But yeah, "hanged around" Kak Fiza and Kak Salwa. They were nice. Kak fIza's in ma school so it was easy to bond wid her.It was great wen we talked. Was boring wen me and ma sister were jst hanging around wid the Makciks. Actually b4 dat me, dadDy and SiSsy walked around the beach. Gosh, there were soo many peeps yesterday. Yeah, mebbe cos of VeSak Day. Didnt do much during the bbQ aneways. Oh yeah, yesteRday morN went to da airport to see my aunt&uncle off to bRunei. They migrated. So lucky. I plan to study overseas once im done wid JC or Oleves. I hope. I really wanna leave Singapore and just go overseas. I wanna travel. I mean, rather than staying in Singapore and achieving the common thing people are reaching for, diploma and stuff.Its boring. I wanna do something different. Well, from now, mebbe i should just save money first before i dream. Well yeah, gotta coach ma younger sishtur 2day while doing holiday homework.

Ma Holiday Homework:

English: Comprehension,Newspaper Cutting, Preparation for
Presentation
Malay: Ringkasan Buku, Research/Projek.
Science: Review Questions on the 4 topics.[Chap. 4,5,6]
Maths: Maths Sums on da Worksheet
Geography: Newspaper Cutting
D&t: Research on the pictures
History: Worksheet
Art: Prepatory and Final piece

miz kicked the coke machine
9:21 PM

Tuesday, June 01, 2004

Everytime we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Every roomate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
All the feelings that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

Only when I stop to think about you
I know
Only when you stop to think about me
Do you know

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
You hate everything about me
Why do you love me

A copy of my favourite song! 0=)

miz kicked the coke machine
1:01 AM

Wat is the meaning of true love? I wanna noe. Does love hurt? I wonder how it feels to be in love. After looking through other peeps blogs and they keep talking about their loved ones, i feel encouraged to try to be in love. But i just noe i would get hurt eventually, so why try? Mebbe one day it will turn out rite. But How can i make sure? Isnt love now just a frisson between a male and a female? How do they get attracted to each other then? Now i know, love is confusing. I guess its time to move on..

miz kicked the coke machine
12:48 AM